Jan 24, 2006 12:25
Stop this moment. Collect, sort, organize. Renovate this stagnant structure and breathe. Map the path and prioritize. I don't have time for it anymore. It's gone too far. It's time to stop.
Because my skills, talents, and time are better applied to something more productive. I am capable of anything, and I already know what I want. Make no mistake: I will not fail in walking any path I choose. It's only a matter of committing without fear or restraint.
I have journeyed into uncharted dimensions of time and space within my mind. I have explored from the inside out. I have lingered on the edge of oblivion and have held myself back. Another step and I may not return. I have taken the jeweled prize of this journey. It's time to come home.
I have become more sensitive to energy than ever. In recent days I have discovered the most profound altered conscious states ever known to me. Now that I've learned of their existence I no longer need the assistance of drugs to reach their plateau.
I have purchased many priceless, intangible experiences, memories, and lessons that will forever remain irreplaceable and invaluable to me-this was never a waste. But I have admittedly crossed the line between spiritual exploration and blatant recreational abuse. Now these funds will be saved or used to accommodate more important future dreams, rather than filling vacant moments with synthetic elation.
I have identified inebriated interaction as a valuable bonding experience, but by no means do I need chemical assistance to flirt with attraction or interest. I am the dominant force that will consume you with existential thoughts and ideas, not the hollow shell that strives to fill silence with white lines.
I am not the insecure, self-defeating, vacant husk that depends on false fuels to function. Development and growth are the persistence of education and its use as applied to life. I am a parasite. I take what I can from every resource available and move on when it has nothing left to offer. I am the independent lordship of my own destiny. Dare not stand in my way.
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