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i think my problem is that I'm desperately trying not to hate you. I just need to give it.
the past couple of days have completely destroyed my life. everything could go wrong. everyone is reassuring me that everything will be be okay but I'm not so sure. the wrong people are worried. I'm an idiot. I just cannot believe all of this is happening. I shouldn't have hung out with her, I shouldn't have opened my mouth. I know it's not my fault in the least, but the kinds of things I heard make me sick. you think you know someone until their most intimate details are shared. not to mention, he dragged me into it even further by needing someone to tell him everything was alright. not like he has the balls to return the favor. we all cope in different ways. It's been a while since I've cried this much, or been this upset over anything. it's the last thing people expect to hear. I can't believe I have to be apart of it. it's killing me the way he's going around all of this. he's a jerk. I'm scared.
the past couple of days have completely destroyed my life. everything could go wrong. everyone is reassuring me that everything will be be okay but I'm not so sure. the wrong people are worried. I'm an idiot. I just cannot believe all of this is happening. I shouldn't have hung out with her, I shouldn't have opened my mouth. I know it's not my fault in the least, but the kinds of things I heard make me sick. you think you know someone until their most intimate details are shared. not to mention, he dragged me into it even further by needing someone to tell him everything was alright. not like he has the balls to return the favor. we all cope in different ways. It's been a while since I've cried this much, or been this upset over anything. it's the last thing people expect to hear. I can't believe I have to be apart of it. it's killing me the way he's going around all of this. he's a jerk. I'm scared.