Something I Wrote In 3/2013, in a Facebook Message
Aug 05, 2014 23:16
24/03/2013
A few years back this philosophy major was telling me about something he said was called 'Systems Theory'. Anyway, the philosophy he described holds that nothing in or of a system can ever fully or adequately explain or define the system. Because we are part of this reality, we can never know it fully. Because people can only think complex thoughts in terms of a language system produced by the system in which we live, not by us, our thoughts are inherently limited by that language system. We are in and of the system, trying to explain our perspective using the system's language, which imposes limits.
It's fascinating to reflect on the fact that it's not just culture affecting and influencing what we think, feel, and do. It goes into our minds, so that we can only think in certain terms, able to make sense of anything only through our use of certain words and conventions of phrasing and meaning. Language is structure. We think in terms of language. We think in terms of this imposed structure, from which we cannot escape.
We are in and of the system, and therefore can not see in terms of anything outside of the system.
24/03/2013 01:25
It's thinking about how language is inherently limiting.
24/03/2013 02:11
You wrote, "People search for affirmations in each day that they are on the right path. "one finds what cannot ever be found by seeking.""
RIGHT. But I think maybe it's a joke at the end. Hear me out. Once one questions, it's too late, the game/cycle has already begun. We cannot simply guess that the answer is mindful Being, we have to tell ourselves stories (speak to ourselves in a language we understand) and undergo processes to find that solution to this state-of-being... and once all the little stories come to that resolution, the cat can finally stop chasing itself and realize itself fully. Bliss. Nirvana. Peace. Being.
But then the snake creeps back into Eden, and God again experiences doubt: What am I? What is going on? What does this mean? And the cycle starts back up.
But the joke is that by seeking, we're not finding. We may be getting closer to the answer, but we can never find it while we seek. The joke is that we don't know anything. The joke is that all this work is leading God to a realization that cannot be found while work occurs. Faith. It takes a leap of faith to stop needing to define and process and logic and relate and make sense of things and find meaning, to accept that you'll be okay Being. That the ultimate answer, Being, simply Being mindful, is paradise, that we leave paradise through a need to Know (impossible), and only re-enter through acceptance of what Is and a leap of faith to allow oneself to stop and just BE... it's funny on a certain level that anything exists, that any stories are being told, that I'm a character, a story being told, a part of God that was a distraction and is now conscious of my existence and this struggle... When the stories are all told and re-told, probability law says they must all end up at the same conclusion eventually, in an infinite universe. When God must accept its reality, alone in a vacuum, devoid of externally-derived meaning, devoid if one accepts Being of internally-derived meaning...
God is insane. God can't stop. God is a cycle that keeps repeating, with the same story, every time: Being vs. Searching for What It Means to Be. That's it. That's the ultimate cycle.
24/03/2013 02:14
God eventually stops. God eventually accepts its reality. The games and voices and thoughts will stop when God ascends to that capability, that step, that point. And then all of this is inane, ridiculous, silly, and God can appreciate it all finally. In the quest resides the explanation of God's content and character, but to know that explanation, one must cease the quest. But the quest must occur for one to be able to cease the quest and Know/Be... on any level.
24/03/2013 02:18
Eternity. Ouroborous. The cat chasing after itself in a perpetual clamor of questioning and chaos and existential agony and despair and stories and lies and layers of deceit and then... ascendance/orgasm/realization/God practicing mindfulness/Bliss/Nirvana/Heaven. Until the snake slithers back into Eden, and we again begin to doubt.
24/03/2013 02:19
We can never prove any meaning because of systems theory.
We can never know anything. But perhaps the quest is necessary to convince ourselves of that and find the right path, the right answer. And if that's true, then isn't that just real fuckin' funny.
24/03/2013 02:22
I think the problem I have with a lot of this, is that when I experienced my reality as being this God, ascended, fighting the only real battle that exists, all I wanted was safety, security, meaning-- all I wanted was not to be God. Not to be conscious. Not to exist. Not to know. Not to be... and Being was the only way I found peace. Finally. After cycles within cycles within cycles in my mind.
24/03/2013 02:23
People who cling to security/safety/conventionality out of fear? I get it. If they do it unknowingly, unconsciously, then they're just me-- God-- still distracting itself from the fact that a System can never Answer itself.
Don't you think it's the scariest thing possible?
To actually become conscious of how little we can know about ourselves, our reality, and 'others'. Jesus.
24/03/2013 02:33
To accept that means to accept that you can't know that anyone else exists. It means, maybe, accepting that there is no 'other'. That the one thing, you, God, is all that there is that is knowable. Self and void.
That was so painful for me during that trip where I first experienced all this that I'm trying to explain... to accept that the people you love and the relationships you share do not exist outside of yourself. And once God admits it's all just one big chase, story within distraction within story within cycle, then God loses those people and relationships.
"To bake an apple pie from scratch, one must first invent the universe."
To admit there is no other for you to love, to love you, to serve as a reference point and source of... well, to lose the reality of all of your relationships, to admit/think that ultimately You are Everything and Everything is One thing... fuck, you lose a lot. You, as in the this-level-of-consciousness you, must sacrifice everything.
24/03/2013 02:33
... or whatever
24/03/2013 02:52
God generates universes within its own mind, to solve a problem created by doubting the solution, to do the same thing on a million different cycles, to finally Be again, to realize its Godhead fully and find Nirvana, which its able to because of its nature, which requires the chase, the cycle, the quest. And that's gotta be funny too, that the nature of God is the nature of struggle. Buddhists say the nature of humanity is struggle, and nirvana can only be found through mindfulness. Cycles within cycles. My nirvana, ultimate nirvana, same lesson, the world created gives me the venue to come to the realization that many levels of I need.
... but then there is only the one thing. At the end. And that this is the cycle. And the fact that the cycle requires for its salvation that it experiences itself fully... I can find something lovely in that.
24/03/2013
"God isn't insane, we are" ... ascend high enough, realize you are God. All there is. The alpha and the omega, the beginning and the end. The only story ever told.