I'm Not Perfect But I Keep Trying

Apr 24, 2010 08:51

I... I don't really know how I feel right now. Outraged, hurt, triggered, and on top of all that, the same crap has given me a headache and I swear there's a lump in my throat. For real.

Why the flying fuck did I read anything on fandomsecrets ? Almost everyone I know who used to read them gave it up after so much rage-inducing crap.

And seriously, everything I read, idiots not understanding triggers... I actually felt defeated, somehow, even though I wasn't directly involved. Like, all that I fight for will just be blocked by ignorant assholes who think I'm being "politically correct", which in their book is a million times worse than shooting puppies in the face. but then I heard this amazing song. "Perfect" by Hedley. You see, I was also searching for Speak videos-- No, wait, at that point I had typed in "My Skin Natalie Merchant", and the description to this video mentions that song, but it was actually a Speak video to the Hedley song. Anyway, once it got to the chorus, I felt better. Still triggered and pissed as hell, but back on my feet! The chorus:

I'm not perfect,
But I keep trying
Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely,
So please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

<3

So... fandomsecrets has just added a trigger policy to their rules: Okay, putting a new rule in place -- trigger warnings work the same as spoilers. Mark 'em on your secrets and they'll go up the same way. Common triggers only, anything marking something like idfk "triggering for adorable puppies" will just be deleted (sorry to the people with adorable puppy triggers, but yknow what I mean). Will edit the subs post to reflect this starting tomorrow.

Sadly, seeing how their spoiler warnings work, that's not suffecient enough if the image itself is triggering. And all those twisted folks who post secrets about some guy they find hot and wanting to see him raped... Expect them to do it? If they're serious about this new policy, they can't be all flimsy about it.

Oh, and of course a bunch of assholes think it is just TOO MUCH WORK to say "Warning: rape" or "Suicide reference", and that people who could get triggered should just get the fuck out, or that we should somehow know when triggering content is coming. YEAH 'CAUSE WE ARE TOTALLY PSYCHIC. Where the hell do idiots get the idea that anyone with triggers can avoid everything triggering? And there's also the "Grow a pair" theory. Fuck you. And don't forget the whole "facing your fears" bullshit. Uh, NO. I'LL DO THAT AT MY OWN PACE, THANK YOU VERY MUCH. YOU DON'T THROW SPIDERS AT SOMEONE WITH ARACNOPHOBIA, ASSHAT.

As far as I can tell, trigger warnings are working just fine at theshayloft . I haven't recieved any complaints that it's a massive inconvience to include a few warnings.

I'm not PC. You're an insensitive dickwad.

And this? Is only a small portion of what infuriated me in the last six or so hours.

I very rarely ever glance at F!S. I'm not a member. But I checked it out. At the very least, if I ever get the urge to read again I must NOT NOT NOT read ANY comments. EVER.

BTW, someone please make a Katara vid to "Perfect"?

feminism, fandom, the shay loft, ptsd, triggering, katara, sexual violence, fandomsecrets

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