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Feb 25, 2012 01:43

Right, so I don't know if I mentioned this, but I dl'd a productivity manager program. Aptly named 'Cold Turket', it blocks me from all the useless webbies which I get distracted on.

Great idea, right? So it worked like a dream for two days--blocked it for 12 hour intervals and relaxed at the end. Till yesterday, 1am, I was so fucking tired I musta done something wrong. I intended to hit it for 24 hours, to see if I could man it out. I accidentally hit it for 124 hours. So that's almost six days. I didn't realise till about half an hour ago, when the block hadn't died and I still couldn't get on all my necessary websites. You should have seen the look on my face. I thought I was going to be sick. Called my mum and blubbered at her for fifteen minutes while she laughed herself hoarse. I tried everything. EVERYTHING. (basically I attempted to delete it from my hard disk 20 million times and it never worked).

And I'd gotten into deep shit recently, with my rowing people. They keep posting updates on FB, and I couldn't access FB. At all. So I didn't turn up for two training sessions so I got angry texts/calls from my coach BUT IT'S NOT MY FAULT. Putting updates on FB is the LEAST professional way to do ANYTHING, EVER. People don't check FB religiously. *shifty eyes* Well, there might be people like that somewhere. WTF man.

Then there was some guy and some back route with smart programming thingies and a cheat way to get out of it, and I used it, and it's like my heartbeat has returned to normal pace. I opened lj/tumblr to respond to some messages and the next thing I know, it's been 10 minutes and I'm reposting a picture of a poetic bear.



IDEK guys. I think I have a serious problem.

Off to block LJ/Tumblr/EVERYTHING again. :(

Wish me luck for my deadlines. 

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