*hugs back* I wish I could be with people. But there's two obstacles: them and me. It's end of term so there's submissions frenzy and then everyone's going home, so no one's got time. and then I'm at fault too, because I find myself avoiding people I know for no good reason, when normally I'd have gone up to them just to chat for five minutes or so. I feel like I'm not myself and it blows.
I'm also pretty scared to go talk to anyone. I'm scared of it getting back to my parents. I grew up in a household where depression was a dirty word, and mental health issues were 'all in your head'. there's some part of me that's like, 'what do you have to be sad about?' in my dad's voice, and even though I know that's not what depression is, it feels like all I can think about. *deep sighs*
Yeah, it does help though, to know that I'm not the only one. Those dreams freak me the fuck out. I've always had vivid, disturbing dreams, and I have my own rota of recurring ones, but this is one of the worse ones. Ugh. Even my subconscious won't let up on me.
I'm just going to hug you back, and ask you to please see a doctor again. You avoided response to that last time.... DOCTOR. Student health center. Whatevs. I expect you to do this and report back
Tough virtual love back <3
(don't worry about your parents finding out, I completely get that, I'm old and I still hide things from my parents LOL - but patient confidentiality is a thing)
I'm also pretty scared to go talk to anyone. I'm scared of it getting back to my parents. I grew up in a household where depression was a dirty word, and mental health issues were 'all in your head'. there's some part of me that's like, 'what do you have to be sad about?' in my dad's voice, and even though I know that's not what depression is, it feels like all I can think about. *deep sighs*
Yeah, it does help though, to know that I'm not the only one. Those dreams freak me the fuck out. I've always had vivid, disturbing dreams, and I have my own rota of recurring ones, but this is one of the worse ones. Ugh. Even my subconscious won't let up on me.
*hugs* I hope it gets better.
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Tough virtual love back <3
(don't worry about your parents finding out, I completely get that, I'm old and I still hide things from my parents LOL - but patient confidentiality is a thing)
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