something's wrong.
something's very wrong with me.
i've fallen into this apathetic state and i don't know what's caused it but it's like i'm sinking into a hole and i just don't care. i've not yet fallen behind on work but i'm so scared i will but i can't bring myself to care? i'm not even making sense. i'm procrastinating despite knowing i can't really afford to procrastinate, and i'm not caring and that's upsetting me, i think.
something's wrong. i'm having those weird dreams again. the recurring one with the island animal sanctuary and swimming around the island with a cat, and animals are being horribly mistreated and oh god.
oh god. DB says it sounds like a depression but i can't afford to be depressed. i need someone to lie to me and tell me it's all okay and that i'm overreacting and that it's all going to be fine. but everyone i talk to is like oh you can't afford to be depressed or what are you sad about and i think i'm going to be sick.
fuck.
i've fallen into this apathetic state and i don't know what's caused it but it's like i'm sinking into a hole and i just don't care. i've not yet fallen behind on work but i'm so scared i will but i can't bring myself to care? i'm not even making sense. i'm procrastinating despite knowing i can't really afford to procrastinate, and i'm not caring and that's upsetting me, i think.
something's wrong. i'm having those weird dreams again. the recurring one with the island animal sanctuary and swimming around the island with a cat, and animals are being horribly mistreated and oh god.
oh god. DB says it sounds like a depression but i can't afford to be depressed. i need someone to lie to me and tell me it's all okay and that i'm overreacting and that it's all going to be fine. but everyone i talk to is like oh you can't afford to be depressed or what are you sad about and i think i'm going to be sick.
fuck.