Nothing is wrong with you. Even if you are depressed, that doesn't mean that something is wrong with you. You can be fully functional with depression, once I had it for eight years straight and didn't realize I was in that state til it broke. In fact I was decidedly efficient in that state since all I was governed by was duty and the feeling like I should do things.
I've fallen into apathetic states several times over the years. It can become a struggle to push yourself forward, but you have to do so even if it does become hard time times. Sometimes it will feel like going through the motions, but as long as you look for a way out eventually you will find one. Sometimes it feels like looking for water in the middle of a soulless desert, but you can find it. Just keep going. I know you can do it. You are smart, you are strong, and you are completely justified in your feelings.
Don't beat yourself up if you don't care, you can't force yourself to care. This isn't a sign of weakness. Sometimes life just gets to be too much for us and our capacity to care must be shut down so that it can be saved for when we really need it. Eventually it will break.
Yeah, I hope not. I know that depression happens, sometimes, but it's just unsettling. To feel so detached and disjointed from myself. Like there's one thing happening in my head and another thing happening in RL and I just don't care enough to make it connect. A lot of stuff I do is because I have to, and not because I want to. It's when I stop wanting to do the things I normally want to, that I get concerned.
Thank you *hugs*. I think I'm getting somewhere. I hope I am, anyway. I just need to get some work done, look at it and feel like I've accomplished something, and then things should fall into place. I hope. Thank you for listening to my bs. *squeezes*
I've fallen into apathetic states several times over the years. It can become a struggle to push yourself forward, but you have to do so even if it does become hard time times. Sometimes it will feel like going through the motions, but as long as you look for a way out eventually you will find one. Sometimes it feels like looking for water in the middle of a soulless desert, but you can find it. Just keep going. I know you can do it. You are smart, you are strong, and you are completely justified in your feelings.
Don't beat yourself up if you don't care, you can't force yourself to care. This isn't a sign of weakness. Sometimes life just gets to be too much for us and our capacity to care must be shut down so that it can be saved for when we really need it. Eventually it will break.
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Thank you *hugs*. I think I'm getting somewhere. I hope I am, anyway. I just need to get some work done, look at it and feel like I've accomplished something, and then things should fall into place. I hope. Thank you for listening to my bs. *squeezes*
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