Stream of Consciousness

[obsessing7]

I wish I had more to tell you, but not so much. Work is hitting new lows. The boredom is just incredible. I haven't quite finished my Christmas shopping, but it's nothing crazy. My three fantasy football teams are in the Championship game, so I'm actually pretty excited about that. I've been trying to go to bed earlier so that I can lead a "normally" houred life, but that's not working out so well - I just want to sleep for longer periods of time. I think it's just the weather. This is going to be a heckuva long winter. [Part of the need for a normally houred life is that] I have to get new brakes on my car - they told me that in (?) June, and I was planning to do it in August and now it's December. I keep thinking that I can smell burning, but frankly, I don't know what it smells like when your brakes are shot, and they still seem to working. I have to write out some Christmas cards; I've been dragging the box back and forth for a few days now, but I haven't been motivated to write anything. Last night, I had a moment of weakness; if it were a Saturday, it would've been considered a "drunk dial." As it was, I couldn't sleep, I was watching something on tv that reminded me of us and I felt all sad and alone - I called Casper. He didn't answer - he left a message a bit later and said he was "crankin' some tunes" and didn't hear the phone - [meanwhile,] the message I left wasn't too bad, but it could have gone really awry. I was thinking, "I'm still in love with you - you need to know this, and I'll do anything to make it work," but I said, "I can't sleep and I was thinking about you and happy holidays and very blahblah." which is much better per the situation. I flirted with Irish last night - I can totally see how people get stuck in relationships and don't leave because they are "good enough." I could see how I could get stuck in a relationship with Irish in this manner. There are things about him that I genuinely like, but that does not necessarily make a good match.

Addendum: Do you find it disturbing that BSpears little sister (16) is now pregnant?