Pre-Christmas Post.
It is strange being back at home after nearly two weeks spent at Ben's house. I always thought that no where else that I could go would feel as comfortable as my own house, but I was wrong. So much so that my house doesn't feel as though I belong there anymore.
I have come to some kind of decision concerning next year too. I am considering deferring uni for six months or a year (I haven't decided yet), finding a job in Brisbane, saving up money so I can pay for rent etc and attempt to save some money so I can live..in Brisbane with Ben, Hannah and Claire. It all came on rather suddenly, when Hannah wanted the rent in a house which we have yet to find to be a little bit cheaper and she looked at Ben as if to say "Get Kahli to move with us!" and to be honest, I love the idea.
Yes, I have fears that this is moving a bit too fast and so does Candice, moving in with my boyfriend and new friends after having only been dating Ben for a nearly 2 months, but I am so completely sick of my situation at home that I want to get out of here and actually live, as opposed to being an eighteen year old with a 12AM curfew.
Mum loves the idea, and said that she's prepaired to give me some cash, so I can live before/if I find a job. I haven't told Dad yet, because it's all very up in the air and he'll want to know specifics..which I don't have. So I'll wait to tell him.
On a more serious note, pregnancy scares are well...scary. And asking the chemist for the Morning After Pill was even scarier. And fucking expensive. Ben and I agreed that we shouldn't tell my dad, because well..he'd attempt to murder Ben.
So yes, I'm not pregant. I'm kind of disappointed in myself for not being as worried as Ben, but now that I look back on it and what could have resulted, it does scare me. So much.
Oh, and I'm going to Sydney on the 27th till possibly the 11th of January. I was excited about going down there, but if we stay until the 11th I'm going to miss Ben terribly. It's only been a day since we've seen each other and I already miss him like crazy. Hmm.
That's all that's happening right now.
Merry Christmas and shit.
I have come to some kind of decision concerning next year too. I am considering deferring uni for six months or a year (I haven't decided yet), finding a job in Brisbane, saving up money so I can pay for rent etc and attempt to save some money so I can live..in Brisbane with Ben, Hannah and Claire. It all came on rather suddenly, when Hannah wanted the rent in a house which we have yet to find to be a little bit cheaper and she looked at Ben as if to say "Get Kahli to move with us!" and to be honest, I love the idea.
Yes, I have fears that this is moving a bit too fast and so does Candice, moving in with my boyfriend and new friends after having only been dating Ben for a nearly 2 months, but I am so completely sick of my situation at home that I want to get out of here and actually live, as opposed to being an eighteen year old with a 12AM curfew.
Mum loves the idea, and said that she's prepaired to give me some cash, so I can live before/if I find a job. I haven't told Dad yet, because it's all very up in the air and he'll want to know specifics..which I don't have. So I'll wait to tell him.
On a more serious note, pregnancy scares are well...scary. And asking the chemist for the Morning After Pill was even scarier. And fucking expensive. Ben and I agreed that we shouldn't tell my dad, because well..he'd attempt to murder Ben.
So yes, I'm not pregant. I'm kind of disappointed in myself for not being as worried as Ben, but now that I look back on it and what could have resulted, it does scare me. So much.
Oh, and I'm going to Sydney on the 27th till possibly the 11th of January. I was excited about going down there, but if we stay until the 11th I'm going to miss Ben terribly. It's only been a day since we've seen each other and I already miss him like crazy. Hmm.
That's all that's happening right now.
Merry Christmas and shit.