[who knows-who cares]
i cannot believe i never use this anymore.
myspace is the devil.
i don't know.
since i've grown up a little this summer these online journals don't seem so important.
especially when i'm not trying to be profound and failing miserably.
so life is just as demented as always.
i saw andrew last night.
beyond bizarre.
i rememeber when i used to long to be just like him and ben and all of the people i thought were just so cool.
people who were dark and jaded.
people who were addicted to drugs.
people who were deep with unfathomable intelligence.
people who actually did what they wanted to and never cared what people thought.
now that so much time has gone by and so many things have been uprooted they aren't on pedestals any longer. it was nice to see him again.
i don't know.
this summer turned my world upside down.
this year actually.
i was so depressed that i thought pathilogically lying to everyone would make the pain go away. it didn't. i only ended up hurting the people i love more than anything. for all of it, i'm sorry.
i have seen HAIR now 2 and a half times. chris, meredith, woodstock, autumn, stephen are amazingly talented. (especially meredith) i had always heard that she was brillant but had never seen it. wow. thats all there really is to say. the play itself is also beyond amazing.
morgan et moi
