[i need to feel something]
okay, i know that this is pathetic ans very shallow but please please please...
post a comment and tell me how much you love me. or something you like about me and why. send me a kiss, send me a hug. show me that i mean something to you and that if i were to be killed or something that it might make an impact on your life.
i know this is terrible but i really need to hear things of this nature right now. life sucks. i rarely get to see my "boyfriend" becasue he is working two jobs and now my parents won't even let me out of the house.
i'm fucking 18 and they treat me as though i am a fucking child.
plus all my dreams are kind of crashing down around me. i'll never be able to go back ot school. i'll never be able to form a band. i'll never make anything out of myself. my dad keeps yelling at me calling me a ruination and telling me how i'm shit and how i'm never going to amount to anything. fopr once, i think he might just be telling the truth. i'm never going to be anyhtign special. i'm worthless and everyone knows it.
don't bullshit me though. don't be fake and tell me how much you love me if its crap. i need to be able to read some genuine affection for me. and yes, this is a cry for attention becasue i feel that sometimes people are entitled to one.
i need to know that i am loved. call me too. if you can. i just need to feel as if my presence in someone's life makes a difference.
much love and ramen noodles.