May 22, 2006 22:03
"For You I Will (Confidence)"
Wondering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
Forgive me if I st-stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, I've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you
If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echoes in every room
I would
That's what I'd do,
That's what I'd do
That's what I'd do
To get through to you
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
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I just can't get enough of this song lately, I LOVE IT!!! I still don't get why Kristin from Laguna Beach is in the video, but whatever.
A lot is going on right now, I'm really excited. I'm almost done with my first year of college, but I still haven't finished writing my speech that I have to give tomorrow morning for my final! And this damn speech made me miss martial arts again, but I'll try going tomorrow I guess instead. This weekend is Yosemite, I'm excited but nervous at the same time. I keep hearing how beautiful it is, but I don't want to have to deal with bullshit...and I know I will. Things have been kind of awkward lately, since there's been crazy schedules and things on my mind. It's wierd that all this started making so much sense FINALLY, but all of a sudden and feelings just changed so fast. I finally realized how fucked up so much shit was that I was constantly taking...I don't know why I put up with so much. Since I've seen how I should be treated, I can't put up with this crap anymore. I still want to have fun and not lose anyone close to me, but I finally see things like I should--and suddenly felt truely truely happy that things aren't official...I do deserve to have fun and meet people who treat me like I should be treated. But once I started putting my foot down it got wierd, and it sucks. This probably doesn't make much sense. After all of these months of everyone asking me why the hell I put up with this shit, I'm finally taking control of my life. Now I really do feel stupid for taking it for so long...I look like an idiot. Don't get me wrong, everything wasn't negative, and I've definitely had many good times that were totally worth it...but wayy too much of it was bad that it was out of control. Basically all I'm saying is that I feel like I'm getting myself together and in the right direction...gonna have fun, not take myself too seriously, and keep my good friends and have fun with new ones. Wow this is soo incredibly cheesy. And it makes sense to me and that's all that matters, lol!