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Eventually if you date long enough you'll find yourself dating the same people. Not the same in name, but the same in character, mannerisms, lack of affection...
I was shocked to see how similar /KAT_M was to /Becky. Similar in the way the kept their house, their love for Broadway, and New York and similar in how they could completely shut you out when they were under stress and lead you to that awkward position of waking up next to a stranger. Though, in all their similarities they were a little different, /KM would drink alcohol but refuse to get drunk whereas /Becky refused to drink it all together. /KAT_M was more sexual, but wasn't a big fan of cuddling - /Becky was just the opposite.
So too are /KM and /AMD alike - in that their communication skills are nearly non-existent. It's damn near impossible to tell how they feel or what they're thinking and each day it seems as if it's all just one missed text away from disappearing...but God are they beautiful. /KM is absolutely stunning and it's her beauty that erodes away that fine line of what you're willing to tolerate and not tolerate. I often imagine what would happen if I just stopped texting /KM - the whole relationship would just disappear like that and all the time we spent together would be gone. I think of doing just that - walking away from it but then i get caught up in her beauty and re-enter the vicious cycle. Both girls also liked to drink - a lot. It's surprising that with as much as /AMD drank we never really got physical, but that was my own fault.
It might appear as though the same mistakes are being made, and in some way they are being repeated, but it's slightly different. I've learned from the mistakes with /AMD to better deal with the lack of affection from /KM and terrible communication. While this is a small step in the right direction, it's a terrible leap in the wrong direction - I don't see myself living with someone that doesn't express constant affection and willingness to reach out. Perhaps I'm "high emotional maintenance" or maybe I'm just looking to regain that level of lost intimacy that I once had... /KM does show signs of improvement, but it's frustrating when I'm the one inviting her over for dinner, out to dinner, out for drinks and always picking up the tab. Why doesn't she text or call? I don't know, you can to crazy thinking about such things (as i did with /AMD).
I was shocked to see how similar /KAT_M was to /Becky. Similar in the way the kept their house, their love for Broadway, and New York and similar in how they could completely shut you out when they were under stress and lead you to that awkward position of waking up next to a stranger. Though, in all their similarities they were a little different, /KM would drink alcohol but refuse to get drunk whereas /Becky refused to drink it all together. /KAT_M was more sexual, but wasn't a big fan of cuddling - /Becky was just the opposite.
So too are /KM and /AMD alike - in that their communication skills are nearly non-existent. It's damn near impossible to tell how they feel or what they're thinking and each day it seems as if it's all just one missed text away from disappearing...but God are they beautiful. /KM is absolutely stunning and it's her beauty that erodes away that fine line of what you're willing to tolerate and not tolerate. I often imagine what would happen if I just stopped texting /KM - the whole relationship would just disappear like that and all the time we spent together would be gone. I think of doing just that - walking away from it but then i get caught up in her beauty and re-enter the vicious cycle. Both girls also liked to drink - a lot. It's surprising that with as much as /AMD drank we never really got physical, but that was my own fault.
It might appear as though the same mistakes are being made, and in some way they are being repeated, but it's slightly different. I've learned from the mistakes with /AMD to better deal with the lack of affection from /KM and terrible communication. While this is a small step in the right direction, it's a terrible leap in the wrong direction - I don't see myself living with someone that doesn't express constant affection and willingness to reach out. Perhaps I'm "high emotional maintenance" or maybe I'm just looking to regain that level of lost intimacy that I once had... /KM does show signs of improvement, but it's frustrating when I'm the one inviting her over for dinner, out to dinner, out for drinks and always picking up the tab. Why doesn't she text or call? I don't know, you can to crazy thinking about such things (as i did with /AMD).