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so, i'm going through a bit of a selfish phase right now. i think i deserve one after the stress of this past year, but i guess it's not the best thing for everyone else.
this weekend was pretty much amazing. i drove down to east lyme, ct on friday to visit em clark - we went to the clay aiken concert (oh good lord, but it was hysterical) & saw willy wonka on saturday. seeing her was just what i needed - it was informative, but it let me realize that i do miss smith, to a great extent, although i'm not ready to go back. today ed took me to the waterpark in portsmouth nh, which was also fabulous. this past week was the best i've had at camp in a long time, and things are going pretty well.
i'm being pulled in so many directions right now, and i am the one doing all of the pulling. i need to go shopping; i haven't been in over a month, i think, and i need the satisfaction only wrentham can give me. meg, saturday? it's around this time of summer i always seem to need a break - week five is usually pretty rough, so i'm not sure if god's giving me a break or if i've just broken the cycle. either way, right now i'm feeling kind of empty, even with all the wonderful people surrounding me. i feel like the one person who is supposed to be around i've pushed away, and that's pretty much my own fault. but right now, i need this time. for me. because i basically have no idea what i'm doing.
but honestly, how is that new?
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