I feel like I should comment because..I really liked this entry and I feel I might well undersatdn how you feel and so it should be important for me to say so. I don't know...
I've been reading your entries lately thinking about how confusing your personality must be for you. I guess I just thought you're different than what you are to your friends or how you act in front of them. i'm good at noticing that about a lot of people, I pay too much attention. Most people will tell me they don't really care and they're whatever they are with whoever they're with, but that can't be true for you.
and then you made this entry, and you said yourself you don't feel comfortable lately, not yourself. I don't think I have that problem much because I'll always do what I've always wanted to do and stay away from things I've always hated. A lot of times I hate that I can't even see me talking to my childhoodself. It bugs me a lot that 8 years ago seems so far away. It's really imporant to stay true to yourself, but it's so hard to do when you'll always be friends with the people you've met. That's why I gave up practically all connection with almost all of my friends. I stopped talking completly to about 5 people, which only leaves 2 close friends and a few aquantances, people I hang out with, people like you. It's really nice because it's given me a chance to figure out what I want out of life and how I want it. I realized who I didn't want to hang out with and took care of it. My mind was too much of a mess and I was too stressed out. There are too many people who stress you out more than make you happy, ya know? Oddly enough, lately without my friends I'm just content. However, I am content. Otherwise, I'd be either extreme-happy or sad. I'm okay with this, because now that I have a chance to clear my head, I can figure out what I'll do to make myself utterly happy again.
I also feel like it comes with meeting new people. Funny though, because people is what threw me off at first. I'm good with people no matter what as long as we get past the awkward months of meeting. Shit, you and I haven't gotten past that point not even you and candice. She and i were talking about that recently. How we'd love to skip the meeting and just know each other. Maybe we should try that. Maybe you'd like to? We'd love to be able to hang out with you more often, and it's a start to meeting new people. And if you'd like we can pretend like we've known each other for years. Long enough to have been your friends back in the time you wish it were now. Maybe it could help you and me and candice. Who knows?
I'm really good at bringing the best out of people. Ask Candice how her week away from me was....
P.S. I love film making, I want in. Seriously. I've had nothing to film or work on for like a year. I don't even know what you've been filming or for what but I want in. :P Anyway, comment back or call or whatever. I don't really get online anymore. Bya bya
I've been reading your entries lately thinking about how confusing your personality must be for you. I guess I just thought you're different than what you are to your friends or how you act in front of them. i'm good at noticing that about a lot of people, I pay too much attention. Most people will tell me they don't really care and they're whatever they are with whoever they're with, but that can't be true for you.
and then you made this entry, and you said yourself you don't feel comfortable lately, not yourself. I don't think I have that problem much because I'll always do what I've always wanted to do and stay away from things I've always hated. A lot of times I hate that I can't even see me talking to my childhoodself. It bugs me a lot that 8 years ago seems so far away. It's really imporant to stay true to yourself, but it's so hard to do when you'll always be friends with the people you've met. That's why I gave up practically all connection with almost all of my friends. I stopped talking completly to about 5 people, which only leaves 2 close friends and a few aquantances, people I hang out with, people like you. It's really nice because it's given me a chance to figure out what I want out of life and how I want it. I realized who I didn't want to hang out with and took care of it. My mind was too much of a mess and I was too stressed out. There are too many people who stress you out more than make you happy, ya know? Oddly enough, lately without my friends I'm just content. However, I am content. Otherwise, I'd be either extreme-happy or sad. I'm okay with this, because now that I have a chance to clear my head, I can figure out what I'll do to make myself utterly happy again.
I also feel like it comes with meeting new people. Funny though, because people is what threw me off at first. I'm good with people no matter what as long as we get past the awkward months of meeting. Shit, you and I haven't gotten past that point not even you and candice. She and i were talking about that recently. How we'd love to skip the meeting and just know each other. Maybe we should try that. Maybe you'd like to? We'd love to be able to hang out with you more often, and it's a start to meeting new people. And if you'd like we can pretend like we've known each other for years. Long enough to have been your friends back in the time you wish it were now. Maybe it could help you and me and candice. Who knows?
I'm really good at bringing the best out of people. Ask Candice how her week away from me was....
P.S. I love film making, I want in. Seriously. I've had nothing to film or work on for like a year. I don't even know what you've been filming or for what but I want in. :P Anyway, comment back or call or whatever. I don't really get online anymore. Bya bya
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