My heart

[obiebaha]

I give up... I'm sick of doing my best to be a good girlfriend and getting fucked over... I'm sick of having such a strong heart that wants to be loved back and I'm not getting it at all! I'm falling for and he's falling from... It kills... How can I mean sooooo little to someone? I was so afraid that it would happen again... perfection turned wrong... but it did happen... Joe isn't this amazing boyfriend lately.. I mean I guess I've been a little emotional lately but really?? This is WORSE than Brandon and I never thought I'd say that... at least I could get a hold of Brandon or get a text back or something!! But Joe doesn't even seem to think of me... Like the boy can go all day of not hearing from me and still be totally fine! So here we are again... I like him too damn much and I'm just another girl... I'm sick of my heart hurting... like physically hurting from liking someone so much so fast... I heard so many good things... I almost believed it wouldn't happen again! I like Joe sooooo damn much!!! It's frustrating to fall soo hard so fast... I guess it's because I'm young and still dumb... Not learning from my past very well... Fell for Brandon and he flipped it and became an asshole... Now Joe was soooo good from the start that I figured that it wouldn't happen again... but Once again I've been fooled... Cross your fingers that I get it right one day!

P.S. I hope this is all my being over emotional because of girl time... but somehow I feel like I'm just never going to be the girl that's good enough... I'm never going to be the girl someone falls in love with...

I'm bumming pretty hard... Any advice?