hopefully this is the last one.
Well, now that I've gotten an honest explanation (and apology) out of him, and the rage is (mostly) quelled, making room again for all the heartache, what feels the worst is not being wanted by someone I wanted so, so badly.
(The fact that he made a point to be clear that he was not involved with anyone else while we were seeing each other, when, although I was clearly the more interested party, that was not true for me, is probably one [of possibly many] indication that, despite my falling for him, he was right to see no future there.)
As much as the idea of verbally ripping him a new asshole for this still titillates me, I think I was right when I said (in the letter to him) that it would ultimately be more satisfying to approach him calmly and get an honest, undefensive explanation out of him.
(The fact that he made a point to be clear that he was not involved with anyone else while we were seeing each other, when, although I was clearly the more interested party, that was not true for me, is probably one [of possibly many] indication that, despite my falling for him, he was right to see no future there.)
As much as the idea of verbally ripping him a new asshole for this still titillates me, I think I was right when I said (in the letter to him) that it would ultimately be more satisfying to approach him calmly and get an honest, undefensive explanation out of him.