Lasting Change
well...im not moving in with my sister in september after all. i talked to my dad just as i was supposed to, as soon as i woke up. It was really emotional, my dad said my sisters place wasnt an option. he kept going on about staying at my friends houses or back into another shelter, but i informed him i would rather live on the streets then put that kind of stress on my friends, and id rather die then go back into another shelter. after about an hour or two, we came to an agreement. he made me write out things i would keep up with if i was to live under his house:
i have had the opprotunity to live under your roof if i obey your rules. i understand if things are not changed, i will no longer have this opprotunity again. this is my last chance to respect your rules, your house and more importantly, you. i will not disrespect you in any way while i am living under your roof, and your rules. i will attend school, while doing my best to pass. i will get a job and support my own needs, keep your house clean, which means any mess i make, i will clean. i will no longer sneak around, nor leave if i do not have permission. i will take care of my own responsibilities and not rely on you to take care of them for me. i will accept and obey any consiquences you give me, and also not fight with you if i do not agree on something you may opinionate, or any new rules you may set for me. i also understand this is not a joke, it is really my last chance to prove to you that i do in fact love, care, respect and along live not jsut in your home, but with you as well. i am ready to live by your rules and start respecting you.
he read it, and said that it was what he was looking for. i really hope i dont fuck this up. if i do i dont know what i will do after. i just need to really stick this out, and just put up with a lot of the shit im about to be putting up with. as much as it will kill me not to fight back, i will be grateful in the end. i am truly lucky to get this chance..
earlier today, timmy brought me a pack of cigarettes because i needed them soo badly. i feel bad that i didnt get to go out and greet him, but i didnt want to get in any more shit. so now...im smoking a cig the hot sexi man of mine brought for me to get cancer!-mwah-
i have had the opprotunity to live under your roof if i obey your rules. i understand if things are not changed, i will no longer have this opprotunity again. this is my last chance to respect your rules, your house and more importantly, you. i will not disrespect you in any way while i am living under your roof, and your rules. i will attend school, while doing my best to pass. i will get a job and support my own needs, keep your house clean, which means any mess i make, i will clean. i will no longer sneak around, nor leave if i do not have permission. i will take care of my own responsibilities and not rely on you to take care of them for me. i will accept and obey any consiquences you give me, and also not fight with you if i do not agree on something you may opinionate, or any new rules you may set for me. i also understand this is not a joke, it is really my last chance to prove to you that i do in fact love, care, respect and along live not jsut in your home, but with you as well. i am ready to live by your rules and start respecting you.
he read it, and said that it was what he was looking for. i really hope i dont fuck this up. if i do i dont know what i will do after. i just need to really stick this out, and just put up with a lot of the shit im about to be putting up with. as much as it will kill me not to fight back, i will be grateful in the end. i am truly lucky to get this chance..
earlier today, timmy brought me a pack of cigarettes because i needed them soo badly. i feel bad that i didnt get to go out and greet him, but i didnt want to get in any more shit. so now...im smoking a cig the hot sexi man of mine brought for me to get cancer!-mwah-