lately...

[o0onickio0o]

recently i got accepted to two colleges i applied to, i had a job interview today at the VF factory outlet, my headaches are just about at full strength and i feel like im going insane. I got this rash from something, some kind of allergic reaction...its all over my........well.......arm. Its gross, kinda spotty so my parents said i cant do that atkins diet anymore that i look like shit and that my skin tone is dull and im not myself. My mom felt bad for me today when i got home from work cause i wasnt eating alot cause i dont have alot of carbs to spare for my diet and i got this really intense headache and my eyes started to tear. I tried my hardest not to but i started crying, i promised myself i would never let her see when i was in pain but i couldnt take it, i could barely stand up and i think that ws the first time she was ever really concerned and worried about me. she told me i cant do this atkins thing anymore and i can do weight watchers with her and that she wants me to go back to Dr. Covey and to start wearing my glasses to help with the headaches. which right now my headache is geting pretty bad so ill try to make this quick. nothing has really been going on in my life, i have been sleeping alot and stuff cause i havent been too healthy. I think i might have mono cause it really hard for me to get up and i am always dead tired. My manager told me i looked like crap today, nice right? Yea lol. Anyways, i duno, imma have to get a catscan of my head if they dont go away by friday but there isnt amything wrong with me, just give me some really good pain killer and i'll be fine. Sometimes i think imma pass out when im drivin, its kinda scary and if i do pass out while driving ijust hope that noone is in the car with me. My dreams are subsiding, i have them probably a few nights a week but its not so bad. i think im going crazy, maybe im already there, who knows? but i gotta go before my head explodes... boom! too late
~nicki~

quote: My dear Sir, take any road, you can't go amiss. The whole state is one vast insane asylum.