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[nyyyy]

I'm having a rather blah day. I've drunk two cups of tea, eaten a shitload of chocolate, and smoked far too many cigarettes since I got up. Today, Tahnee pointed out to me, is pretty much the first time in three or more weeks that I haven't had to run around like a chicken with its head cut off. There was the performance, then my sister was here, and then I worked all week. So of course, my stupid mind starts bringing up all the things that have been ruminating in the basement of my conscious, untouched for the most of the month, growing mold and smelling yeasty.
Gross, I know. But that's what it's like.

Crap currently occupying my brain:
-Family stuff
-Trying to move a bed from Seattle to my room, with nobody to help me.
-That Olympia will flood if it doesn't stop bloody raining
-The dog I'm taking care of, who is refusing to eat most of his food and has an insane co-owner who routinely threatens my roommate
-The end of the world
-If I'll be able to continue working at my job next year without work study
-Being unable to get along with most of the human race
-That I'm going to explode with sexual tension
-That I'm going to go out of my mind with boredom next year when I'm not in school
-How I'm going to pay back college loans
-Why I can't just walk up to someone I'm interested in, and say "Hey. I'm attracted to you. How's that make you feel?"
-Conversely, why I can't tell someone I'm NOT interested in, "Stop looking at me like that. We're not going to go there."
-Myriad other insecurities involving my writing, acting, appearance, awkward personality, finances, friends, etc.

I'm amazed I still have room for motor functions and coherent speech with all this shit taking up room.