Oct 18, 2015 11:26
Sometimes someone writes or otherwise creates something that moves me. (Interesting that so many creative processes use "write" as the creative term) And on rare occasions I encounter something that moves me in different ways.
Netflix started including descriptive video as an audio option for its original series programming starting earlier this year with Daredevil. This means that "Sense 8, the latest creation by the Wachowskis and J. Michael Strazynski had a descriptive track to it. The bugs aren't completely out of this system yet, but I still managed to get a decent way through the show so far, and this was my first serious "binge watching" experience. (I had minor ones with telethons of shows or the four hour Stargate SG-1 runs Sci-Fi once did, but nothing on this scale)
I love these characters. All of them are such interesting people, both the eight leads and their supporting allies. And what they go through is also so intense. This show brings out a lot of emotion for me, and that hasn't happened in many years.
Noemi has a lot of things she says or goes through that hit me in the heart chakra. I go through phases where some things can lie under the surface for a long time, and then something stirs it up and I have to deal with the feelings again. Some of these things are things I can't do anything about right now, so I have to just find a way to cope with those issues. The relationship between Noemi and Neits also brings up a lot of heavy stuff -- I once thought I had someone in my life who had my back, but that turned out false. In the show they're there for the long haul, and I can't think about that too much or it starts to hurt again.
I don't know exactly where I am in the episode list, but I know I'm pretty far along. I've been catching it alone, as the mighty roommate is house sitting right now.
Something is going to have to change. Coming from a period where my comfort zone was extremely wide because of all of the massive changes (the end of my career possibilities, the quick sale of my house, the loss of my sight, going back to school, and all that) I've gotten into a much more stable life. Yes, there are frustrations, like getting to the grocery store to keep food in the house, but most everything else tends to the stable. But a state of equilibrium for a long time period isn't progress, and there are things I need to get done. I need to get my garage converted into my studio. I need to do some upkeep and the last of the remodeling on the house. I need to take care of an annoying birth defect. I can keep these things at bay from day to day, especially when it's a struggle just to get to the grocery store to take care of basic needs. But they're not improving. And because of that I'm not growing as much as I could. I'm not one big on setting markers about trips around the sun, but I am getting close to my 50th birthday early next year, and I don't want to keep on letting things just idle. So something is going to have to change. I'm not sure how it's going to change, but I'll work it out.