It felt like there was a fireball forming in the center of my chest. The heat, unbelievable heat, seemed to travel through my veins, scorching my blood until it reached my finger tips and toes and escaped. Panic attack on the rise and color vacating my face, I felt myself becoming weak and shaky ( Read more... )

I want to cry for you right now. Or for myself over you. It's these reminders that you're gone that do this to me. It's having to take these tests with fear for the worst because of how things came to be with you. It's wanting you to be there ( Read more... )

Some will fall in love with life
And drink it from a fountain
That is pouring like an avalanche
Coming down the mountain

Last night was really great. I got home from work, took Jake for a long walk, came back home to the offering of alcohol, and drank once Myk got home. It was him, me, Gina, and Chris. We all drank and they all smoked. Spent some time at the playground and walked down to first bridge from behind ESI. Being outside on empty streets and with alcohol ( Read more... )

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Wednesday Melissa is taking me down to Dover so I can have my interview at McIntosh. I feel excited to be finally heading toward a career. For two years now, I have been working retail to scrape by in a world that is unexciting and always working against my true desires. Hopefully, with a college education in progress, new opportunities will open ( Read more... )

Dealing alright. I feel like I should be reacting more, but I can’t. I just think about death more. Funny that the clock at the funeral home makes that loud tick tock...as if to say “listen to the moments of your life as they pass you by. You, too, will soon lie here cold and still and dead ( Read more... )

Over the last few weeks, I have been tossing this idea around in my head. I didn’t want to mention anything about it at first, as I was afraid of negative opinions killing the entire scheme, but I ended up mentioning it to Myk a few nights ago, and he told me to do it…so ( Read more... )

Work sucked today. It was one of those days that makes you feel like you’re being jerked around, kept in the dark, awaiting termination. I’m tired of the douche bags with whom I work. Even those who seemed alright, appeared to be my friends, I find myself feeling Leery around. I cannot wait to go to school. I cannot wait to escape the hell of ( Read more... )