::sigh::
we went to bed early-esque. was nice, at the least, the thought of sleeping in.
yeah, save I was up about 3 hours later, at 1:28 (yes I noted the time) and was up in pain until about 6. Pain. Yeah, that's putting it mildly. When you are considering walking as shakily as you do to get a hammer and start hitting yourself in the forehead because then at the least you could finally sleep, that is bad.
I'm trying. Veronica, bless her life, wants to help any way she can and it has to be a mix of driving her crazy that she can't and the frustration in that I turn into a wailing sobbing whiny and often snapping bitch as the pain ramps up and down and she has nothing to help her through those moments either. And her legs hurt too... she thinks I don't know, but I do.
My chair is still broken. we're waiting to hear from the repair place to see when he can come and then we'll figure how to afford the repair. I hurt, almost all the time. I'm honestly exhausted, and depressed.
I'm working on it all... but somedays it's a zero spoon day with a hard road ahead.
yeah, save I was up about 3 hours later, at 1:28 (yes I noted the time) and was up in pain until about 6. Pain. Yeah, that's putting it mildly. When you are considering walking as shakily as you do to get a hammer and start hitting yourself in the forehead because then at the least you could finally sleep, that is bad.
I'm trying. Veronica, bless her life, wants to help any way she can and it has to be a mix of driving her crazy that she can't and the frustration in that I turn into a wailing sobbing whiny and often snapping bitch as the pain ramps up and down and she has nothing to help her through those moments either. And her legs hurt too... she thinks I don't know, but I do.
My chair is still broken. we're waiting to hear from the repair place to see when he can come and then we'll figure how to afford the repair. I hurt, almost all the time. I'm honestly exhausted, and depressed.
I'm working on it all... but somedays it's a zero spoon day with a hard road ahead.