bad friday...
so far today has been not a good day. no, not finances-- thank every goddess and god out there, right now, at this moment in time, I have an amazing full time job with a boss I love for a company that does good things, and part time work with a person I respect and really like, doing some really killer things...
no, today is just about the pain. Agonizing and no, I do not use that lightly. I am prone to venous skin ulcers and two of them on one leg are taking forever to heal, as per the norm with the condition. Today, for no real reason, one, which is actually drying up and covering, went mad. Stabbing pain that would not stop to the point I was nearly screaming from it. This went on for hours, and while I know some pain lowering techniques, this went beyond those.
When the episode ended, for the most part, I was exhausted. Seriously, walking the 15 feet to the bathroom takes me forever right now. All I really want to do is go to bed, but I have a few deadlines for work. The GOOD thing about this is that the fulltime job moved from thinking research to mailings. I can honestly do that without thought, and in a way it's relaxing. I thank the gods that I don't need to really think today-- I'd have to fake it and I'm just not that good.
I'm just damn glad I have my wife; the wailing, thrashing and crying HAD to weigh on her and she was unflinchingly supportive. She came and hugged me when she thought I needed it, she teased me and made me laugh, and even poked food into me. Truth here, I will NOT say I do not deserve her; obviously I do or I'd not have her, but I am so past glad the universe let me find her.
no, today is just about the pain. Agonizing and no, I do not use that lightly. I am prone to venous skin ulcers and two of them on one leg are taking forever to heal, as per the norm with the condition. Today, for no real reason, one, which is actually drying up and covering, went mad. Stabbing pain that would not stop to the point I was nearly screaming from it. This went on for hours, and while I know some pain lowering techniques, this went beyond those.
When the episode ended, for the most part, I was exhausted. Seriously, walking the 15 feet to the bathroom takes me forever right now. All I really want to do is go to bed, but I have a few deadlines for work. The GOOD thing about this is that the fulltime job moved from thinking research to mailings. I can honestly do that without thought, and in a way it's relaxing. I thank the gods that I don't need to really think today-- I'd have to fake it and I'm just not that good.
I'm just damn glad I have my wife; the wailing, thrashing and crying HAD to weigh on her and she was unflinchingly supportive. She came and hugged me when she thought I needed it, she teased me and made me laugh, and even poked food into me. Truth here, I will NOT say I do not deserve her; obviously I do or I'd not have her, but I am so past glad the universe let me find her.