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so happy to be coming out of that funk. fuck mono.
to be fair, it was lost as much due to my inability to beat it's emotional and mental draining. christ was that confusing and stammering. was i sick? or was it in my head? was i sick, or did i lose all interest and become an uninspired, lazy, useless being to my life. to life. depression? no. no no, that can't be right. i can SEE all these things i want to be doing.. but not feeling moved to do them. who knew how paralyzing it could be. am i not stronger than that?
alas, it is waning. and - more importantly - i am strengthening. hoorah.
to be fair, it was lost as much due to my inability to beat it's emotional and mental draining. christ was that confusing and stammering. was i sick? or was it in my head? was i sick, or did i lose all interest and become an uninspired, lazy, useless being to my life. to life. depression? no. no no, that can't be right. i can SEE all these things i want to be doing.. but not feeling moved to do them. who knew how paralyzing it could be. am i not stronger than that?
alas, it is waning. and - more importantly - i am strengthening. hoorah.