(FIC) Are You My Soul Mate? Chapter 7: Why Does It Hurt To Love You?
Title: Are You My Soul Mate? Chapter 7: Why Does It Hurt To Love You?
Author: Nyrok5 A.K.A Kezz
Rating: R for foul language
Warning: MxM, Sexual situations, Foul Language
Pairings: Yunjae (Main), Yoosu, Yehae, Kangteuk, few more (actually a lot more)
Genre: Romance, Fluff,drama, bad humour
Disclaimer: Hell yeah I own them... NOT... In my dreams I do... Always in my dreams
A/N: I'm sorry if it sucks and I'm late
Summary: Jaejoong, a transfer student from Japan finds himself asking directions from a god-like playboy who puts the him under a spell he can't escape. Finding out that Jaejoong is close with his best friend's boyfriend, this means his plans for the raven haired beauty crumble to the ground. What stops Yunho believing in such things as love and soul mates exist? What pain did a certain someone cause the fiery Jaejoong? Will Jaejoong be able to convince the playboy Yunho that love exists and will it grow between the two seemingly opposites even through all the fires they cause or will their raging battles not just cause an end for themselves but their friends as well?
“Love knows no limit to its endurance, no end to its trust, no fading of its hope; it can outlast anything. Love still stands when all else has fallen.” Unknown
The clear droplets of water pelted onto the cream skinned boy dousing him in hot water. His dark penetrating eyes shifted to his purple bruised ribs. It had been nearly three weeks since it had happened and yet this bruise was not healing.
Yunho knocked on the door when he heard the water stop running from the bathroom. The door opened to reveal the most gorgeous sight Yunho thinks he might have ever seen. The creamy rich skin, the way the drops clung to his toned body, his cherry red lips, everypart of this boy's body looked beautiful.
"Oh my god what happened there?" The older asked sitting down on his knees to examine the other's bruised ribs. He was currently eye level with the top of the towel that was wrapped around the shorter's waist.
"It's from the fight I was in, the one where you bailed us out from," Jaejoong mumbled his beetroot red cheeks turning a darker shade of crimson. Yunho examined the bruising, touching it with the utmost care and yet it still caused the other to wince in pain.
"Princess, this doesn't look good. You really should go to the hospital about this, I actually think some of your ribs are broken," Yunho stated looking up at the other who was blushing madly. He slowly leaned forward knowing the rule he was breaking before pressing his lips against the bruised skin causing the other to gasp.
"YUNHO WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO HIM?!" A voice screamed, a voice they recognised all too well. The high pitched screech that they were going to be deafened by sooner or later.
Yunho snapped to attention his lips retreating before he stood up inhaling and turning around to face the group that were staring wide eyed at the two in surprise.
"W-W-What.... d-d-d-...." Junsu trailed off staring in horror at his hyung and his boyfriend's friend. The friend he told to stay away from Jaejoong.
"Jaejoong...." Jong-woon murmured looking at the older with tears in his own eyes before pushing past and hugging him tightly.
"I'm sorry I couldn't protect you...." The younger mumbled in between the sobs that were escaping his lips. Jaejoong patted the other's back in a soothing manner as he tried to comfort him.
Yunho bowed his head slightly walking past the group standing in his bathroom doorway before he went to sit on his couch his mind shouting curses at himself.
Yoochun slipped away silently from his shocked boyfriend to head into the lounge room of Yunho's dance studio where he watched the other walk into. He plonked himself down next to the non responsive Yunho who was staring blankly into space.
"Aish Yunho, why do you always do this to yourself? You always seem to fall for the ones you know you can't have. Man, don't play it so close to the edge if you aren't going to go through with it, not like before," Yoochun spoke, his voice low and inexpressive.The words escaping his lips caught Yunho's attention.
"W-What? I haven't fell for him, you know there is only one person I'll ever have strong feelings fo-" Yunho was cut off by the other speaking once again.
"I know there is someone who has your heart, I know that but I don't know who. I don't know anything about this person because you won't tell me anything. Yunho I'm your friend, learn to trust me more. I don't care if you've fallen for Jae just make sure you don't hurt him or Junsu won't be the only one kicking your ass, I like that boy he's my friend so please don't hurt him. If you are going to start something then finish it or stop leading him on," Yoochun spoke poisonously. His words were cold and bitter yet they hinted some warmth in them.
"I-I.... aish Yoochun, you know I can't have anything with him, I will only ever hurt him... I don't even get to decide who I want to end up with, my parents are just going to sell me off to some.... Chun... I'm just going to end up like my father I know it.... I've already stuffed things up with half of my family please help me not to make the same mistake with Jaejoong," Yunho said staring at the picture of them when they were younger.
"Yunho don't talk like that, you can love whoever you want man. Not everything will turn out like it did with the other guy. Just know if you ever decide to pursue him I will be rooting for you, I believe you two would be good for each other," Yoochun stated giving the other an encouraging smile as he placed his hand on his shoulder giving it a tight squeeze before getting up.
"Thanks Chun," Yunho mumbled looking up at his friend's smiling face.
"Oh and I love the story about you and Jae sleeping together, if only I was there I could've recorded it on my phone. Aish," Yoochun added in a teasing tone as a sneaky grin formed on his grease ball face. Yunho stared at him in disbelief before palming his cheek in exhaustion.
A few minutes later Jaejoong came out dressed in a clean pair of washed blue denim jeans and a white and black hooded jacked layered over a black t-shirt causing Yunho's chocolaty orbs to enlarge.
The rest of their group followed behind him, Junsu was holding Jaejoong's hand much to both the raven haired boy's and Yoochun's arguements. They walked over to Yunho with Junsu protesting against it.
"Thank you Yunho, I really appreciate what you did for me today. I guess I owe you another one don't I?" The raven head said chuckling a little.
"Don't mention it princess, I want you to remember everything I told you today. Also Junsu I expect you to take him to the hospital in the next few days. Good bye Kim Jaejoong and I told you I'm going to collect on your debt when the time is right so be prepared," Yunho spoke seriously in a formal type voice.
"Yunho why are you speaking like we are never going to see each other again?" Jaejoong asked his curiosity getting the better of his small frame.
"Don't worry princess, we will see each other considering our friends will getting married sometime in the near future," Yunho joked faking a smile on his lips as he earned glares from his two best friends.
Well, I'll be getting married soon.... so I can't see you anymore, it's too dangerous for the both of us princess, Yunho thought as he waved the others off.
"Jaejoong, answer me this one question would you?" Junsu asked seriously. He had decided the first moment he set eyes on Jaejoong after two years he would not let Yunho be anything more than a friend to Jaejoong. Yunho was a cocky, narcissistic, self-centred playboy that was the exact type of boy Jaejoong fell for and he wasn't going to let his best friend have his heart broken.
"Junsu I'm sick of answering your questions, don't you think you could give me a break. I had to see that fucking prick again, I can't deal with anymore questions right now," Jaejoong said defensively feeling fatigued and mentally exhausted.
"Hyung just answer this question. Do you like Yunho hyung?" Junsu asked cautiously knowing he was treading on rocky terrain.
"So what if I'm attracted to him. I'm not the only person in the world that is," Jaejoong stated looking at the younger in the passenger seat of Yoochun's car. The other's were currently in Kangin's car which Jaejoong was desperately wishing he was as well.
"Jaejoong for your sake stay away from him, I beg of you. He will only break your heart like Tae Hyun d-" Junsu was cut off by his boyfriend's hand over his mouth motioning him to shut up.
"Thank you Chun," Jaejoong mumbled throwing his head back on the seat.
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"Junsu please stop this! Babe just let them chose there own path!" Yoochun hissed at his younger boyfriend the anger boiling within his veins.
"Shut up Yoochun! I won't see my best friend being broken hearted again!" The younger shouted back slamming his fist down on the desk top.
"Su you weren't even there when he caught Tae Hyun! You didn't even know he would get drunk and let people blow him!" Yoochun said his voice a little calmer as he tried to control his frustration.
"ARRGH~! I won't talk to you when you're like this! You're being irrational!" Junsu screamed in frustration. How could he not see what Yunho would do to Jaejoong if they ever became more than friends.
"Me? I'm not the one being irrational! Su, Yunho isn't all you think he is! He can fall in love! They are grown boys Junsu let them make their mistakes, let them live their lives. If Yunho hurts him then he will pay but they can do what they want!" Yoochun argued trying to get his point of view across to the dolphin that was being obstinate.
"AISH! I can't talk to you when you're being like this! Talk to me when you can see everything that you are saying is wrong!" Junsu said voice full of poisonous frustration. The younger walked out of Yoochun's room slamming the door before running out of the house.
Yoochun watched as his bubble butted dolphin exited the house. He felt the tears well up in his eyes as he wondered how he could talk to his boyfriend like that. He never wanted to make his Soul mate sad and look what he done because he was sticking up for the blind faith he had about Yunho and Jaejoong.
"FUCKING HELL!" Yoochun screamed picking up the art book that was sitting on his king size bed before throwing it at the wall.
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Jaejoong and Jong-woon walked into the school holding hands and smirking in a teasing manner when they saw Donghae's jealous expression.
"Hyung, I think it's working," The younger said trying not to laugh as he watched his boyfriend pouted from afar. Jaejoong glanced at his friend laughing to himself at how cute these two were.
"Oh if you want to make him jealous I know exactly how to do that Yesung," The older purred in a suggestive manner causing the other to falter in his smirk.
"Oh my god my ears! Go to Heechul for head jobs... oh wait you want a blow job...." Jong-woon teased earning a (very weak) slap on his arm.
Yoochun came running out of school breathing hard looking alarmed.
"Jaejoong! Don't go in there!" The older boy shouted panting heavily as he caught up to the two boys. Jaejoong looked at Yoochun in confusion.
"There's.....a.....video..." The older panted resting his hands on his knees as he breathed oxygen into his lungs.
"No!" Jaejoong mumbled feeling faint as he knew the only video that he would allow himself to be recorded on was the video that would destroy everything.
"Oh.My.God." Jong-woon said his eyes wide as he knew the video Yoochun was talking about.
"What's goin-" Donghae was cut off as he walked up to the other's wondering what on earth could be wrong.
"TAE HYUN!" Jaejoong growled letting go of Jong-woon's hand and running off to the school causing the other's to follow him.
The four boys entered the corridor running to the assembly room where the video was being played on the giant screen on the wall where the whole school was crowded around.
Jaejoong froze when he saw the video Heechul and he made almost a year ago now being played on the screen. Hundreds of thoughts were plaguing his mind as he stood there watching himself being sucked off by Heechul.
Shaking his head vigorously he ran across the hall towards the screen pushing students aside as he tried to get to the stage. Climbing up on top of it he saw a smug looking Tae Hyun standing there with crossed arms.
"YOU FUCKING BASTARD! HOW FUCKING DARE YOU SHOW THIS TO ANYONE YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE! HOW THE FUCK DID YOU EVEN GET YOUR COCK SUCKING HANDS ON THIS?" Jaejoong roared as his fist flew through the air only to be caught by his ex boyfriend.
"Awww baby I like this video though. It turns me on and by the looks of it them too, goes to show how sexy you are!" Tae Hyun said his voice low and husky as he pulled the struggling other towards him crashing their lips together.
"Don't touch him Tae! I told you I would fucking kill you if you touched him again!" Jong-woon shouted climbing up onto the stage about to lunge at Jaejoong's ex boyfriend. Tae Hyun stopped their lip lock allowing himself to be punched in the jaw by his ex lover.
"Oh I'm not the one who tried to kill myself after my father molested me!" Tae Hyun retorted causing the whole room to freeze. Jong-woon's voice got caught in his throat as he stood there feeling everything come crashing around him.
Jaejoong swung his fist at the other another time hitting him in the stomach winding him a little.
"Tae you're way out of line you cunt!" Jaejoong hissed balling his fists ready to attack him in a frenzy. He was bewildered that this heartless bastard would sink that low and expose the most painful thing in Jong-woon's past.
"I'll told him I'd get even, it's not my fault he's suicidal oh and had to be hospitalised for months!" Tae Hyun continued his attack on the innocent younger who was holding back sobs as tears fell from his dark eyes.
"Fu-cking bas-tard! That's right you.... you rich snobs... my fath-er di-d do that to m-me... a-and I did try and kill myself... no-now you see w-why I ha-hate the wor-ld and the assholes in i-it!" Jong-woon stuttered in agreement as he faced the large crowd with tears flowing down his cheeks.
"Sorry D-Donghae..." Jong-woon mumbled walking down the steps of the stage as he wanted to get away from this place as quickly as he could.
"This had nothing to do with him Tae! You wanted me back well you're doing a fucking fine job of getting your wish! Do you really think I would get back with you when I caught you cheating on me three times! Mark my words this isn't over Tae Hyun! Next time we meet I'm ending this with your face implanted in the ground!" Jaejoong shouted throwing his fist at the other one more time before running after his unstable friend.
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"Hae are you alright?" Yunho asked as he passed a warm mug of tea to the younger. Yunho wasn't planning on going to school today and just cram his dancing but he wished he had to he could've beat the crap out of that boy.
"Y-Yunho, wh-what am I supposed to say to him?" Donghae asked looking up at his friend with wide eyes. Never in a million years had he thought anything like that would've happened to Jong-woon and now he does know he doesn't know what to do.
"Tell him you still love him, tell him his past doesn't matter to you. You love him for who he is when you are together. Hae, it shouldn't matter what happened in someone's past but if you love them you fight for them," Yunho replied rubbing soothing circles on the other's back.
“I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out.” Roy Croft
"Yunho, how do you know so much about love when you're a 'Casanova'?" Donghae asked curiously changing the subject abruptly.
"Ah, Hae I was wondering when you would ask me. Actually it took you longer than I thought it would to tell you the truth. Okay I'll tell you, it's because I've been in love well I still love that person but they've always been in love with another but that other is oblivious to my love's feelings because that person is in love with another," Yunho stated without using anyone's names or gender. The younger looked at him a confused expression on his adorable little face.
"Okay okay I'll put it simpler for you. I'm still in love with my first love, but he is in love with his other friend. But his friend is in love with another guy," Yunho simplified his sentence making it easier for the younger to comprehend.
"Oh I understand now, do you still see the boy you're in love with?" Donghae's innocent curiosity got the better of him unknowingly pushing Yunho.
"Yeah, I see him a lot. He doesn't know I'm in love with him and I shouldn't love him for so many different reasons but this stupid heart inside me always yearns for him but I mask everything I feel when I'm with him... not with him as in having sex because we never have... hehe.... but as in when we are at functions together," Yunho explained not being able to look the younger in the eyes for fear he might break, his mask might crumble and Donghae will be able to see right through him.
"Awww, Yunho don't be sad. I love you all the same, and so does Jae hyung," Donghae stated in his carefree manner not knowing what effect those words were having on Yunho right now.
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"Jae, oh my god are you alright?" Jung-soo asked when he entered the apartment giving his firend a tight hug before looking around for Jong-woon.
"He's in his room, he hasn't spoken a word sine...." Jaejoong trailed off when he felt his blood boil just thinking of what Tae Hyun did to them.
"It's okay Jae, you don't have to say anything," Heechul said hugging his younger friend tightly before walking him to the couch.
Heechul observed Jaejoong's movements very closely and the way he would respond to the slightest noise.
"I-I need to get out of here... I need to drink.... I need something stronger than tea..." Jaejoong stated his eyes darting around the room before he headed over to the kitchen ransacking the cupboards for the bottle of whisky he still can't seem to find.
"Jae I have some whisky here," Young-woon declared waving the bag with what appeared to be six bottles of hard core whisky and scotch.
"Kangin, give me the bottles," Jaejoong commanded snatching the bag before making a break for the door escaping by a fraction.
He couldn't handle his friends seeing him like this, he needed to go somewhere where they wouldn't judge him. He needed to escape the stuffy insides of the apartment even though he knew they would follow him he needed to be left alone to think over what he was going to do.
Looking back making sure he had giving Young-woon and Heechul the slip he began making his way to a place he knew he could drink as much as he wanted without ever being questioned. Yunho promised Jaejoong he could drink as much as he wanted as long as he stayed with him so nothing happened.
Taking out one of the bottles he opened it taking a long swig feeling the burning sensation of the alcoholic liquid stream down his throat.
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"Jaejoong, what are you doing here?" Yunho asked surprised to see the younger standing on his dance studio's doorstep at this time of night.
"You told me I could drink here as long as I'm with you. I need to drink," Jaejoong stated his eyes red and puffy from all the tears that had leaked from his doe-like beautiful eyes.
"Mmm... come in before you catch a cold," Yunho replied hating himself for playing it so close to the edge with this raven haired beauty. This boy or the other would ultimately lead to his downfall and he knew it.
Jaejoong stepped in taking another drink from the three quater's empty whisky bottle, the second one he was drinking.
He looked at Yunho lust pooling in his stomach as the other was only in a pair of sleeping bottoms, his hair ruffled looking like it had been slept in.
Yunho helped Jaejoong down to his couch so he could at least drink without falling over. Yunho knew this was going way beyond his limits and he shouldn't have even said anything to the younger about drinking here. He knew he shouldn't be even getting close to Jaejoong because in the end all he would do was hurt him and this boy didn't need anymore hurt in his life.
"I heard what happened today," Yunho stated not knowing what to say or do to help comfort Jaejoong. The words caused Jaejoong to scoff and mutter something under his breath.
"Donghae is setting up a date to the theme park for them to go to tomorrow, stupid boy. Love makes people do crazy things," Yunho added trying to initiate conversation to ease the uncomfortable tension that had settled between them.
"Yunho... do you believe in Soul Mates?" Jaejoong asked abruptly catching the other off guard.
"No, I don't believe that one person is made with their other heart already inside another's body, the person they are supposed to spend the rest of their lives with. People search for years trying to find that person, to find love at first sight, but when they do that they never really experience life or even what a love in time is. They are stupid hopeless fools that shouldn't believe in such impossible things, you are stupid to believe in such things Jae," The older replied trying to sound as cold as possible.
"Fuck you Yunho, have you even experienced love? I bet you haven't you're just a playboy wanting sex from everyone!" Jaejoong accused sending daggers at the other with his piercing stare.
"Don't think you know me so well princess, for your information I have experienced love a love that should never even have been created. A love that will never be returned," Yunho retorted snatching the bottle of whisky from the younger and taking a drink of it himself.
"Blgh! Ewww how the hell can you drink that poison?" Yunho spat the contents in his mouth out wiping his tongue with his hand. Jaejoong laughed uncontrollably at this seeing the older's expression was priceless.
"Grow some balls," Jaejoong mumbled in between his laughing causing the other to glare at him.
"Oh I've got them if you want to see," The older answered back in a husky voice teasingly before poking his tongue out when the other stared at him in amusement.
"Come on then drop your pants," The raven haired beauty commanded impatiently causing the other to choke on the saliva in his mouth.
"W-What I was joking, I'm not dropping my trousers in front of you!" The older refused putting his hands up in a cross like motion acting like the other was a vampire.
"Well I wasn't," Jaejoong murmured taking a drink from another bottle of whisky.
"Okay that's enough drinking for you," Yunho said concern clearly apparent in his voice as he took the bottle away from the younger who was looking in disappointment at him.
"Yunnie~" Jaejoong whined pouting cutely at him batting his long eyelashes in attempt to have the whisky bottle back.
Yunho felt his heart flutter when the nick name escaped the younger boy's lips.
"You are sure weird when you're drunk," The older said awkwardly feeling rather embarrassed and uneasy walking over to the kitchen and tipping the contents down the drain.
"Ha, I'm only partially drunk. Tomorrow I will remember everything we are talking about even if I probably don't want to but yeah," The raven haired boy stated coherently as he got up from the couch to walk over to where the picture of Yunho and his friend's when they were younger teenagers was.
"Who is this with you guys?" Jaejoong asked pointing to the teenager standing next to Yunho. He looked kind of familiar to Jae but he couldn't remember where he had seen this kid.
"Oh... um... ah.... that's.... um...." Yunho stuttered feeling even more nervous and uncomfortable.
"Is that the boy you're in love with?" Jaejoong asked his voice hinting the emotions he was holding in.
"Yeah, that's him... the fucking love of my life...." Yunho paused composing himself to the best of his ability at one in the morning.
"Still I have no choice in anyone I want to end up with thanks to my stupid parents. They are marrying me off to one of the largest company in the world's daughter. How fun I have two months more of freedom than I'm gonna be stuck waking up to some skank. Care to take my position?" He continued sarcastically as he sighed harshly at how unfair his life was he didn't even like girls very much.
"Wow, that's such a bad life. I'm a heart broken, going to be expelled, poor, murderous virgin who hasn't even turned eighteen," Jaejoong replied rolling his eyes still keeping his hands on the picture frame.
"Um.... o-kay.... I think you should get some sleep now," Yunho said not knowing how to comfort the other without crossing his blurred line further.
"Whatever you can go but I'm not going to bed yet, I still have to figure out where I've seen this boy before," Jaejoong stated waving in a sarcastically happy manner.
"Haha very funny now go to bed before I carry you there," The older commanded running his slender fingers through his short dark brown locks.
"Ooo, I could think of many more things we could do to pass the time than sleeping..." Jaejoong said in a suggestive tone causing the other's cheeks to turn a light shade of pink.
"NO! We can't be anything more than friends," Yunho stated sternly dragging the younger into his bedroom. He could feel his heart in his chest beat faster than it was supposed to.
"How is it I'm sleeping in the same bed with the same boy but I haven't had sex with him yet?" Yunho mumbled under his breath as he pushed the other down onto the bed pulling the comforter up to his chin before jumping on the other side.
"Good night princess," Yunho murmured shutting his eyes quickly praying this night to be over.
"Night Yunnie," Jaejoong replied cuddling up to the back of Yunho unconsciously before drifting off into a peaceful slumber.
“You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.” Dr. Seuss
TBC Chapter 8
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Hello,
Um about this chapter, hmmm I had a lot of trouble writing this one... um yeah... I really think this is one of the worst chapters I've ever written.... I believe there is too much dialog, um and the stuff I wanted to put it would make things go a little too fast...
Well I hope you remotely enjoy this chappie anyway,
SPOT FOR my little perverted reader coeur2chocolat <333
Thank you for reading and all the lovely comments <333
Author: Nyrok5 A.K.A Kezz
Rating: R for foul language
Warning: MxM, Sexual situations, Foul Language
Pairings: Yunjae (Main), Yoosu, Yehae, Kangteuk, few more (actually a lot more)
Genre: Romance, Fluff,drama, bad humour
Disclaimer: Hell yeah I own them... NOT... In my dreams I do... Always in my dreams
A/N: I'm sorry if it sucks and I'm late
Summary: Jaejoong, a transfer student from Japan finds himself asking directions from a god-like playboy who puts the him under a spell he can't escape. Finding out that Jaejoong is close with his best friend's boyfriend, this means his plans for the raven haired beauty crumble to the ground. What stops Yunho believing in such things as love and soul mates exist? What pain did a certain someone cause the fiery Jaejoong? Will Jaejoong be able to convince the playboy Yunho that love exists and will it grow between the two seemingly opposites even through all the fires they cause or will their raging battles not just cause an end for themselves but their friends as well?
“Love knows no limit to its endurance, no end to its trust, no fading of its hope; it can outlast anything. Love still stands when all else has fallen.” Unknown
The clear droplets of water pelted onto the cream skinned boy dousing him in hot water. His dark penetrating eyes shifted to his purple bruised ribs. It had been nearly three weeks since it had happened and yet this bruise was not healing.
Yunho knocked on the door when he heard the water stop running from the bathroom. The door opened to reveal the most gorgeous sight Yunho thinks he might have ever seen. The creamy rich skin, the way the drops clung to his toned body, his cherry red lips, everypart of this boy's body looked beautiful.
"Oh my god what happened there?" The older asked sitting down on his knees to examine the other's bruised ribs. He was currently eye level with the top of the towel that was wrapped around the shorter's waist.
"It's from the fight I was in, the one where you bailed us out from," Jaejoong mumbled his beetroot red cheeks turning a darker shade of crimson. Yunho examined the bruising, touching it with the utmost care and yet it still caused the other to wince in pain.
"Princess, this doesn't look good. You really should go to the hospital about this, I actually think some of your ribs are broken," Yunho stated looking up at the other who was blushing madly. He slowly leaned forward knowing the rule he was breaking before pressing his lips against the bruised skin causing the other to gasp.
"YUNHO WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO HIM?!" A voice screamed, a voice they recognised all too well. The high pitched screech that they were going to be deafened by sooner or later.
Yunho snapped to attention his lips retreating before he stood up inhaling and turning around to face the group that were staring wide eyed at the two in surprise.
"W-W-What.... d-d-d-...." Junsu trailed off staring in horror at his hyung and his boyfriend's friend. The friend he told to stay away from Jaejoong.
"Jaejoong...." Jong-woon murmured looking at the older with tears in his own eyes before pushing past and hugging him tightly.
"I'm sorry I couldn't protect you...." The younger mumbled in between the sobs that were escaping his lips. Jaejoong patted the other's back in a soothing manner as he tried to comfort him.
Yunho bowed his head slightly walking past the group standing in his bathroom doorway before he went to sit on his couch his mind shouting curses at himself.
Yoochun slipped away silently from his shocked boyfriend to head into the lounge room of Yunho's dance studio where he watched the other walk into. He plonked himself down next to the non responsive Yunho who was staring blankly into space.
"Aish Yunho, why do you always do this to yourself? You always seem to fall for the ones you know you can't have. Man, don't play it so close to the edge if you aren't going to go through with it, not like before," Yoochun spoke, his voice low and inexpressive.The words escaping his lips caught Yunho's attention.
"W-What? I haven't fell for him, you know there is only one person I'll ever have strong feelings fo-" Yunho was cut off by the other speaking once again.
"I know there is someone who has your heart, I know that but I don't know who. I don't know anything about this person because you won't tell me anything. Yunho I'm your friend, learn to trust me more. I don't care if you've fallen for Jae just make sure you don't hurt him or Junsu won't be the only one kicking your ass, I like that boy he's my friend so please don't hurt him. If you are going to start something then finish it or stop leading him on," Yoochun spoke poisonously. His words were cold and bitter yet they hinted some warmth in them.
"I-I.... aish Yoochun, you know I can't have anything with him, I will only ever hurt him... I don't even get to decide who I want to end up with, my parents are just going to sell me off to some.... Chun... I'm just going to end up like my father I know it.... I've already stuffed things up with half of my family please help me not to make the same mistake with Jaejoong," Yunho said staring at the picture of them when they were younger.
"Yunho don't talk like that, you can love whoever you want man. Not everything will turn out like it did with the other guy. Just know if you ever decide to pursue him I will be rooting for you, I believe you two would be good for each other," Yoochun stated giving the other an encouraging smile as he placed his hand on his shoulder giving it a tight squeeze before getting up.
"Thanks Chun," Yunho mumbled looking up at his friend's smiling face.
"Oh and I love the story about you and Jae sleeping together, if only I was there I could've recorded it on my phone. Aish," Yoochun added in a teasing tone as a sneaky grin formed on his grease ball face. Yunho stared at him in disbelief before palming his cheek in exhaustion.
A few minutes later Jaejoong came out dressed in a clean pair of washed blue denim jeans and a white and black hooded jacked layered over a black t-shirt causing Yunho's chocolaty orbs to enlarge.
The rest of their group followed behind him, Junsu was holding Jaejoong's hand much to both the raven haired boy's and Yoochun's arguements. They walked over to Yunho with Junsu protesting against it.
"Thank you Yunho, I really appreciate what you did for me today. I guess I owe you another one don't I?" The raven head said chuckling a little.
"Don't mention it princess, I want you to remember everything I told you today. Also Junsu I expect you to take him to the hospital in the next few days. Good bye Kim Jaejoong and I told you I'm going to collect on your debt when the time is right so be prepared," Yunho spoke seriously in a formal type voice.
"Yunho why are you speaking like we are never going to see each other again?" Jaejoong asked his curiosity getting the better of his small frame.
"Don't worry princess, we will see each other considering our friends will getting married sometime in the near future," Yunho joked faking a smile on his lips as he earned glares from his two best friends.
Well, I'll be getting married soon.... so I can't see you anymore, it's too dangerous for the both of us princess, Yunho thought as he waved the others off.
"Jaejoong, answer me this one question would you?" Junsu asked seriously. He had decided the first moment he set eyes on Jaejoong after two years he would not let Yunho be anything more than a friend to Jaejoong. Yunho was a cocky, narcissistic, self-centred playboy that was the exact type of boy Jaejoong fell for and he wasn't going to let his best friend have his heart broken.
"Junsu I'm sick of answering your questions, don't you think you could give me a break. I had to see that fucking prick again, I can't deal with anymore questions right now," Jaejoong said defensively feeling fatigued and mentally exhausted.
"Hyung just answer this question. Do you like Yunho hyung?" Junsu asked cautiously knowing he was treading on rocky terrain.
"So what if I'm attracted to him. I'm not the only person in the world that is," Jaejoong stated looking at the younger in the passenger seat of Yoochun's car. The other's were currently in Kangin's car which Jaejoong was desperately wishing he was as well.
"Jaejoong for your sake stay away from him, I beg of you. He will only break your heart like Tae Hyun d-" Junsu was cut off by his boyfriend's hand over his mouth motioning him to shut up.
"Thank you Chun," Jaejoong mumbled throwing his head back on the seat.
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"Junsu please stop this! Babe just let them chose there own path!" Yoochun hissed at his younger boyfriend the anger boiling within his veins.
"Shut up Yoochun! I won't see my best friend being broken hearted again!" The younger shouted back slamming his fist down on the desk top.
"Su you weren't even there when he caught Tae Hyun! You didn't even know he would get drunk and let people blow him!" Yoochun said his voice a little calmer as he tried to control his frustration.
"ARRGH~! I won't talk to you when you're like this! You're being irrational!" Junsu screamed in frustration. How could he not see what Yunho would do to Jaejoong if they ever became more than friends.
"Me? I'm not the one being irrational! Su, Yunho isn't all you think he is! He can fall in love! They are grown boys Junsu let them make their mistakes, let them live their lives. If Yunho hurts him then he will pay but they can do what they want!" Yoochun argued trying to get his point of view across to the dolphin that was being obstinate.
"AISH! I can't talk to you when you're being like this! Talk to me when you can see everything that you are saying is wrong!" Junsu said voice full of poisonous frustration. The younger walked out of Yoochun's room slamming the door before running out of the house.
Yoochun watched as his bubble butted dolphin exited the house. He felt the tears well up in his eyes as he wondered how he could talk to his boyfriend like that. He never wanted to make his Soul mate sad and look what he done because he was sticking up for the blind faith he had about Yunho and Jaejoong.
"FUCKING HELL!" Yoochun screamed picking up the art book that was sitting on his king size bed before throwing it at the wall.
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Jaejoong and Jong-woon walked into the school holding hands and smirking in a teasing manner when they saw Donghae's jealous expression.
"Hyung, I think it's working," The younger said trying not to laugh as he watched his boyfriend pouted from afar. Jaejoong glanced at his friend laughing to himself at how cute these two were.
"Oh if you want to make him jealous I know exactly how to do that Yesung," The older purred in a suggestive manner causing the other to falter in his smirk.
"Oh my god my ears! Go to Heechul for head jobs... oh wait you want a blow job...." Jong-woon teased earning a (very weak) slap on his arm.
Yoochun came running out of school breathing hard looking alarmed.
"Jaejoong! Don't go in there!" The older boy shouted panting heavily as he caught up to the two boys. Jaejoong looked at Yoochun in confusion.
"There's.....a.....video..." The older panted resting his hands on his knees as he breathed oxygen into his lungs.
"No!" Jaejoong mumbled feeling faint as he knew the only video that he would allow himself to be recorded on was the video that would destroy everything.
"Oh.My.God." Jong-woon said his eyes wide as he knew the video Yoochun was talking about.
"What's goin-" Donghae was cut off as he walked up to the other's wondering what on earth could be wrong.
"TAE HYUN!" Jaejoong growled letting go of Jong-woon's hand and running off to the school causing the other's to follow him.
The four boys entered the corridor running to the assembly room where the video was being played on the giant screen on the wall where the whole school was crowded around.
Jaejoong froze when he saw the video Heechul and he made almost a year ago now being played on the screen. Hundreds of thoughts were plaguing his mind as he stood there watching himself being sucked off by Heechul.
Shaking his head vigorously he ran across the hall towards the screen pushing students aside as he tried to get to the stage. Climbing up on top of it he saw a smug looking Tae Hyun standing there with crossed arms.
"YOU FUCKING BASTARD! HOW FUCKING DARE YOU SHOW THIS TO ANYONE YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE! HOW THE FUCK DID YOU EVEN GET YOUR COCK SUCKING HANDS ON THIS?" Jaejoong roared as his fist flew through the air only to be caught by his ex boyfriend.
"Awww baby I like this video though. It turns me on and by the looks of it them too, goes to show how sexy you are!" Tae Hyun said his voice low and husky as he pulled the struggling other towards him crashing their lips together.
"Don't touch him Tae! I told you I would fucking kill you if you touched him again!" Jong-woon shouted climbing up onto the stage about to lunge at Jaejoong's ex boyfriend. Tae Hyun stopped their lip lock allowing himself to be punched in the jaw by his ex lover.
"Oh I'm not the one who tried to kill myself after my father molested me!" Tae Hyun retorted causing the whole room to freeze. Jong-woon's voice got caught in his throat as he stood there feeling everything come crashing around him.
Jaejoong swung his fist at the other another time hitting him in the stomach winding him a little.
"Tae you're way out of line you cunt!" Jaejoong hissed balling his fists ready to attack him in a frenzy. He was bewildered that this heartless bastard would sink that low and expose the most painful thing in Jong-woon's past.
"I'll told him I'd get even, it's not my fault he's suicidal oh and had to be hospitalised for months!" Tae Hyun continued his attack on the innocent younger who was holding back sobs as tears fell from his dark eyes.
"Fu-cking bas-tard! That's right you.... you rich snobs... my fath-er di-d do that to m-me... a-and I did try and kill myself... no-now you see w-why I ha-hate the wor-ld and the assholes in i-it!" Jong-woon stuttered in agreement as he faced the large crowd with tears flowing down his cheeks.
"Sorry D-Donghae..." Jong-woon mumbled walking down the steps of the stage as he wanted to get away from this place as quickly as he could.
"This had nothing to do with him Tae! You wanted me back well you're doing a fucking fine job of getting your wish! Do you really think I would get back with you when I caught you cheating on me three times! Mark my words this isn't over Tae Hyun! Next time we meet I'm ending this with your face implanted in the ground!" Jaejoong shouted throwing his fist at the other one more time before running after his unstable friend.
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"Hae are you alright?" Yunho asked as he passed a warm mug of tea to the younger. Yunho wasn't planning on going to school today and just cram his dancing but he wished he had to he could've beat the crap out of that boy.
"Y-Yunho, wh-what am I supposed to say to him?" Donghae asked looking up at his friend with wide eyes. Never in a million years had he thought anything like that would've happened to Jong-woon and now he does know he doesn't know what to do.
"Tell him you still love him, tell him his past doesn't matter to you. You love him for who he is when you are together. Hae, it shouldn't matter what happened in someone's past but if you love them you fight for them," Yunho replied rubbing soothing circles on the other's back.
“I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out.” Roy Croft
"Yunho, how do you know so much about love when you're a 'Casanova'?" Donghae asked curiously changing the subject abruptly.
"Ah, Hae I was wondering when you would ask me. Actually it took you longer than I thought it would to tell you the truth. Okay I'll tell you, it's because I've been in love well I still love that person but they've always been in love with another but that other is oblivious to my love's feelings because that person is in love with another," Yunho stated without using anyone's names or gender. The younger looked at him a confused expression on his adorable little face.
"Okay okay I'll put it simpler for you. I'm still in love with my first love, but he is in love with his other friend. But his friend is in love with another guy," Yunho simplified his sentence making it easier for the younger to comprehend.
"Oh I understand now, do you still see the boy you're in love with?" Donghae's innocent curiosity got the better of him unknowingly pushing Yunho.
"Yeah, I see him a lot. He doesn't know I'm in love with him and I shouldn't love him for so many different reasons but this stupid heart inside me always yearns for him but I mask everything I feel when I'm with him... not with him as in having sex because we never have... hehe.... but as in when we are at functions together," Yunho explained not being able to look the younger in the eyes for fear he might break, his mask might crumble and Donghae will be able to see right through him.
"Awww, Yunho don't be sad. I love you all the same, and so does Jae hyung," Donghae stated in his carefree manner not knowing what effect those words were having on Yunho right now.
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"Jae, oh my god are you alright?" Jung-soo asked when he entered the apartment giving his firend a tight hug before looking around for Jong-woon.
"He's in his room, he hasn't spoken a word sine...." Jaejoong trailed off when he felt his blood boil just thinking of what Tae Hyun did to them.
"It's okay Jae, you don't have to say anything," Heechul said hugging his younger friend tightly before walking him to the couch.
Heechul observed Jaejoong's movements very closely and the way he would respond to the slightest noise.
"I-I need to get out of here... I need to drink.... I need something stronger than tea..." Jaejoong stated his eyes darting around the room before he headed over to the kitchen ransacking the cupboards for the bottle of whisky he still can't seem to find.
"Jae I have some whisky here," Young-woon declared waving the bag with what appeared to be six bottles of hard core whisky and scotch.
"Kangin, give me the bottles," Jaejoong commanded snatching the bag before making a break for the door escaping by a fraction.
He couldn't handle his friends seeing him like this, he needed to go somewhere where they wouldn't judge him. He needed to escape the stuffy insides of the apartment even though he knew they would follow him he needed to be left alone to think over what he was going to do.
Looking back making sure he had giving Young-woon and Heechul the slip he began making his way to a place he knew he could drink as much as he wanted without ever being questioned. Yunho promised Jaejoong he could drink as much as he wanted as long as he stayed with him so nothing happened.
Taking out one of the bottles he opened it taking a long swig feeling the burning sensation of the alcoholic liquid stream down his throat.
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"Jaejoong, what are you doing here?" Yunho asked surprised to see the younger standing on his dance studio's doorstep at this time of night.
"You told me I could drink here as long as I'm with you. I need to drink," Jaejoong stated his eyes red and puffy from all the tears that had leaked from his doe-like beautiful eyes.
"Mmm... come in before you catch a cold," Yunho replied hating himself for playing it so close to the edge with this raven haired beauty. This boy or the other would ultimately lead to his downfall and he knew it.
Jaejoong stepped in taking another drink from the three quater's empty whisky bottle, the second one he was drinking.
He looked at Yunho lust pooling in his stomach as the other was only in a pair of sleeping bottoms, his hair ruffled looking like it had been slept in.
Yunho helped Jaejoong down to his couch so he could at least drink without falling over. Yunho knew this was going way beyond his limits and he shouldn't have even said anything to the younger about drinking here. He knew he shouldn't be even getting close to Jaejoong because in the end all he would do was hurt him and this boy didn't need anymore hurt in his life.
"I heard what happened today," Yunho stated not knowing what to say or do to help comfort Jaejoong. The words caused Jaejoong to scoff and mutter something under his breath.
"Donghae is setting up a date to the theme park for them to go to tomorrow, stupid boy. Love makes people do crazy things," Yunho added trying to initiate conversation to ease the uncomfortable tension that had settled between them.
"Yunho... do you believe in Soul Mates?" Jaejoong asked abruptly catching the other off guard.
"No, I don't believe that one person is made with their other heart already inside another's body, the person they are supposed to spend the rest of their lives with. People search for years trying to find that person, to find love at first sight, but when they do that they never really experience life or even what a love in time is. They are stupid hopeless fools that shouldn't believe in such impossible things, you are stupid to believe in such things Jae," The older replied trying to sound as cold as possible.
"Fuck you Yunho, have you even experienced love? I bet you haven't you're just a playboy wanting sex from everyone!" Jaejoong accused sending daggers at the other with his piercing stare.
"Don't think you know me so well princess, for your information I have experienced love a love that should never even have been created. A love that will never be returned," Yunho retorted snatching the bottle of whisky from the younger and taking a drink of it himself.
"Blgh! Ewww how the hell can you drink that poison?" Yunho spat the contents in his mouth out wiping his tongue with his hand. Jaejoong laughed uncontrollably at this seeing the older's expression was priceless.
"Grow some balls," Jaejoong mumbled in between his laughing causing the other to glare at him.
"Oh I've got them if you want to see," The older answered back in a husky voice teasingly before poking his tongue out when the other stared at him in amusement.
"Come on then drop your pants," The raven haired beauty commanded impatiently causing the other to choke on the saliva in his mouth.
"W-What I was joking, I'm not dropping my trousers in front of you!" The older refused putting his hands up in a cross like motion acting like the other was a vampire.
"Well I wasn't," Jaejoong murmured taking a drink from another bottle of whisky.
"Okay that's enough drinking for you," Yunho said concern clearly apparent in his voice as he took the bottle away from the younger who was looking in disappointment at him.
"Yunnie~" Jaejoong whined pouting cutely at him batting his long eyelashes in attempt to have the whisky bottle back.
Yunho felt his heart flutter when the nick name escaped the younger boy's lips.
"You are sure weird when you're drunk," The older said awkwardly feeling rather embarrassed and uneasy walking over to the kitchen and tipping the contents down the drain.
"Ha, I'm only partially drunk. Tomorrow I will remember everything we are talking about even if I probably don't want to but yeah," The raven haired boy stated coherently as he got up from the couch to walk over to where the picture of Yunho and his friend's when they were younger teenagers was.
"Who is this with you guys?" Jaejoong asked pointing to the teenager standing next to Yunho. He looked kind of familiar to Jae but he couldn't remember where he had seen this kid.
"Oh... um... ah.... that's.... um...." Yunho stuttered feeling even more nervous and uncomfortable.
"Is that the boy you're in love with?" Jaejoong asked his voice hinting the emotions he was holding in.
"Yeah, that's him... the fucking love of my life...." Yunho paused composing himself to the best of his ability at one in the morning.
"Still I have no choice in anyone I want to end up with thanks to my stupid parents. They are marrying me off to one of the largest company in the world's daughter. How fun I have two months more of freedom than I'm gonna be stuck waking up to some skank. Care to take my position?" He continued sarcastically as he sighed harshly at how unfair his life was he didn't even like girls very much.
"Wow, that's such a bad life. I'm a heart broken, going to be expelled, poor, murderous virgin who hasn't even turned eighteen," Jaejoong replied rolling his eyes still keeping his hands on the picture frame.
"Um.... o-kay.... I think you should get some sleep now," Yunho said not knowing how to comfort the other without crossing his blurred line further.
"Whatever you can go but I'm not going to bed yet, I still have to figure out where I've seen this boy before," Jaejoong stated waving in a sarcastically happy manner.
"Haha very funny now go to bed before I carry you there," The older commanded running his slender fingers through his short dark brown locks.
"Ooo, I could think of many more things we could do to pass the time than sleeping..." Jaejoong said in a suggestive tone causing the other's cheeks to turn a light shade of pink.
"NO! We can't be anything more than friends," Yunho stated sternly dragging the younger into his bedroom. He could feel his heart in his chest beat faster than it was supposed to.
"How is it I'm sleeping in the same bed with the same boy but I haven't had sex with him yet?" Yunho mumbled under his breath as he pushed the other down onto the bed pulling the comforter up to his chin before jumping on the other side.
"Good night princess," Yunho murmured shutting his eyes quickly praying this night to be over.
"Night Yunnie," Jaejoong replied cuddling up to the back of Yunho unconsciously before drifting off into a peaceful slumber.
“You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.” Dr. Seuss
TBC Chapter 8
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Hello,
Um about this chapter, hmmm I had a lot of trouble writing this one... um yeah... I really think this is one of the worst chapters I've ever written.... I believe there is too much dialog, um and the stuff I wanted to put it would make things go a little too fast...
Well I hope you remotely enjoy this chappie anyway,
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Thank you for reading and all the lovely comments <333