Whee.
Happy Birthday to... oh screw it.
joy. today is my b-day and in approx one hour I shall be 19. peachy. two more godforsaken years till I can drink myself under the table. Boy I can't wait.
yeah, Shard, Gidieon and Kassie threw me a kinda b-day party. pretty nifty. we had fun. makes me think back to the good old days. wow. not even nineteen and already i've got the ol'geezer speak down.
::Sighs:: I don't really know why I feel so...weird right now. boy am I one sick puppy. (shard you know who/what I'm talking about) It's just like, for no apparent reason, the feeling that I'm not good enough, that i'm not pretty, that i'm just this annoying piece of slowly rotting flesh taking up space hits me like a ton of bricks.
I know its not true. But that doesn't make the feeling go away. I just feel so...useless. I mean, sometimes I feel wanted and stuff but then others...I just feel like i'm annoying. maybe I expect to much, or not enough.
well... I have to go now...schoolwork to do and all...
ciao.
joy. today is my b-day and in approx one hour I shall be 19. peachy. two more godforsaken years till I can drink myself under the table. Boy I can't wait.
yeah, Shard, Gidieon and Kassie threw me a kinda b-day party. pretty nifty. we had fun. makes me think back to the good old days. wow. not even nineteen and already i've got the ol'geezer speak down.
::Sighs:: I don't really know why I feel so...weird right now. boy am I one sick puppy. (shard you know who/what I'm talking about) It's just like, for no apparent reason, the feeling that I'm not good enough, that i'm not pretty, that i'm just this annoying piece of slowly rotting flesh taking up space hits me like a ton of bricks.
I know its not true. But that doesn't make the feeling go away. I just feel so...useless. I mean, sometimes I feel wanted and stuff but then others...I just feel like i'm annoying. maybe I expect to much, or not enough.
well... I have to go now...schoolwork to do and all...
ciao.