Blarg. I feel like I need to make an official blog post - the rambling kind that I tend to do. There are a great many things that have been happening lately that I want to talk about them all, but first I must work out the logistics of doing this ( Read more... )

Every year, I generally take July 21st off of work so that I can privately slip into hiding and away from the world. This is the day that my mother passed away, circa 1996. This year, I sacrificed today, and went to work, because I attended my great niece’s 8th Grade Graduation, so I did not have the extra time to take off, like I normally do. But ( Read more... )

I'm generally a hearty person, but I have ups and downs with the best of them. This week is not starting out so great for me. I'm in one of my low periods. There are a number of things that factor into this; the 12 hour days for work and the fact that I've been winnowing down my caffeine intake chief among them ( Read more... )

This year, as every year, I will be skipping Mother's Day. I do not need yet another day to be reminded that I'm without one. I absolutely abhor this time of year, with all the happy advertisements telling people to buy their mothers nice gifts, flowers and chocolates. To them, I say BAH HUMBUG ( Read more... )

Death Day has arrived. It's hard to imagine that it's been 14 years since my mother passed. It's still fresh in my mind, and seems like yesterday; though the intense feelings of loss and pain of when it happened are not there as much any more. That doesn't mean I don't still get emotional. I do. Especially this time around. But, at the same time, I ( Read more... )

On the television show The Secret Life of an American Teenager, they have the Dead Parents Club. It's a club for kids who lost one parent or another, to lean on and support each other because those who have not lost a parent do not understand how much it affects everything in your life ( Read more... )

Today would have been my parent's wedding anniversary. I just realized what the date was. Perhaps that's why I've been so down today, aside from the other posted stuff.

Meh. If only I were a guy and forgot the dates of important events in my life, things would be easier.

I am cursed with a good memory.

I always take today off. I didn't this year because I opted to do something next week with friends instead. It's not a decision I regret, but that doesn't make today suck any less ( Read more... )

Monday marks the 12 year anniversary of my mother's death. I think it is especially prominent this year for me because a very good friend of mine is going through something similar. It brings about all the memories of what I went through, watching my mother go through her trials and troubles. While those memories are bubbling up, it's good to know ( Read more... )

Last night Nancy asked if talking about my mother would help. It doesn’t. Not really. Nor does looking at her picture. However, last night I obliged Nancy by showing her the one picture I keep with me always - the one of her and I standing in front of Edinburg Castle in Scotland. Whenever talking about my mother, or looking at her picture, I get ( Read more... )