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Papa's surgery was Thursday morning. I left late Wednesday, drove all night and got in about 4am, got to spend an hour or so with Papa before the surgery, then tried to spend some time with him afterwards sitting by his bedside.
I was going to type up more, but honestly I'm tired of telling it. I'm tired of the whole thing, I'm just ready for him to be better. My mom called me this morning and was asking me what I thought about a procedure they were talking about doing, and it was just like... yanno, mom, I'm not a doctor. If they think it's best, then I guess I trust them. I'm tired of being told what numbers mean what and what we need to watch for. I just want to know he's going to get better. If there's something I can do... then, by all means, let me know. But until then... I'm going to trust the doctors. There's not much else I can do and not go nuts.
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are
I was going to type up more, but honestly I'm tired of telling it. I'm tired of the whole thing, I'm just ready for him to be better. My mom called me this morning and was asking me what I thought about a procedure they were talking about doing, and it was just like... yanno, mom, I'm not a doctor. If they think it's best, then I guess I trust them. I'm tired of being told what numbers mean what and what we need to watch for. I just want to know he's going to get better. If there's something I can do... then, by all means, let me know. But until then... I'm going to trust the doctors. There's not much else I can do and not go nuts.
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are