I have this fire growing inside me! Burning my insides feeding on my flesh! How is it one can feel these feeling and stay sane! I stand alone away from the world of understanding! I constantly put my self through the same aggravation thinking that one day things will change, one day they will be better. Granted they are really good, I always get ( Read more... )

iTS fUNNY hOW tHINGS tURN oUT... i gET sO cLOSE tO wHERE i wANT tO bE. bUT iN oNE iNSTANT eVERYTHING iS tAKEN aWAY. i dONT kNOW iF i wILL eVER bE mE, bUT i sHALL sIT hERE aND pLAY mY cARDS... i aM lIVING bACK aT hOME, iT iS vERY dIFFRENT. bUT tHE cOMFORT iS hIGHER...nOT mUCH oF a tALKER tONIGHT...

I havent written in a very long time. So much has changed and so much hasent. I am single and I cant say that I am loving it but it is ok. I think the hardest thing about being single is the lonelyness. I have always been afraid of being lonely and now it is my reality. I am starting schoolin the spring. New things to do. I cant say much right now ( Read more... )

Today is a very sad day. One of my sisters good friends committed suicide. My sister was talking to her mother and the mother of the little girl said that it was all of her fault. She is in shambles. I dont really know what to do for her. My father was talking to me and asked me how much did that little girl taketo the point where she had to take ( Read more... )

A part of me has been sucked out of me in may ways. I have felt the feeling of being alive and have felt it being suck out of me like a vaccum cleaning a patch infested carpet. I am not sure whether it was for the good or bad, but time comes when it is time to let go of the things you are dependent upon for happiness. The pain endoured is merly a ( Read more... )

In a perfect world, lovers wake up with a kiss. All of the wishes and dreams come true. I havent gone to work in like a week. I loved it but I have to go back tomorrow. Things suck at this point. Before I eat I get sick after I eat I get sick. I just feel terrible lately and there is not much I can do aout it. My boyfriend wants to take me to T.J ( Read more... )

"One day I'll fly away, leave all this to yesterday, why live life from dream to dream and dread the day when dreaming ends." I have been thinking about life and all of its attributes. And now my lust for writing has faded... my peach mango man I havent forgotten you...

Sometimes in life we get sad. In life I find myself very sad. Life is suppose to be great. And I guess it is good, and I just complain about things. Love is a horribly wonderful thing. You get all dressed up to go out and be with the one that you love just to be with them. For once in a long time I feel beautiful, I feel great. My hair is nice and ( Read more... )

Some things in life are so unexplainable it almost makes life worth living. I was thinking alot and I notice things about life that usually I dont think about twice. People in life say they "want" to be rich they "want" a better life. But out of the millions of people who say I WANT how many of them acually achieve their dreams. I was watching a ( Read more... )

Lost, alone and confused. I no longer hold the strength I once held. It all use to be so simple. My morals were so hig and everything was geat. But it soon came to a crashing end. Slowly but very fast at the same time. I was listening to a song by NIVEA, it made everything seem like it was going to be alright. But I was foolish to believe that. I ( Read more... )