Don't panic!
Livejournal is not going to collapse. There are lots of people beavering away in Russia. Calm down and stop bloody posting about it!
I've been in a state of anxiety for the last few days. Yesterday I obsessively played solitaire on and off for the whole of my awake time, and only left the flat for 10 minutes. It took me 6 hours to get washed and dressed. My bin was smelly and the only way I could think of motivating myself to take it out was to go to the shop afterwards and buy binge food/drink. I was *not* happy with myself. I drank 2/3 of a bottle of wine and poured 1/3 down the sink. I ate a tub of ice cream and two small chocolate bars.
I am anxious about not being able to increase my working hours in time. The timetable had originally been to increase to 10 hours a week by February, then up it to 16 hours a week by May. If I don't get to 16 hours a week by May I'll have to work for 3 hours a week or less until I find a 16+ hour a week job. I don't know if working is a good idea for me, I really don't. I am so anxious! My passport hasn't arrived yet and it's difficult to get work without proof that I am allowed to work in this country. My ID is rubbish. Need passport! I don't want to look for work without one, but avoidance leads to more anxiety for me. I'm seeing my Work Directions person today, I'll talk to her about my anxieties. I've just submitted an online query about my passport.
Yesterday I thought that writing twitter updates about my anxiety was enough; that didn't work. I need to write about my anxiety more, it helps. Today my main plan is to get washed and dressed as soon as I can. I do not want to play solitaire today until I've left the flat and got back again.
I've been in a state of anxiety for the last few days. Yesterday I obsessively played solitaire on and off for the whole of my awake time, and only left the flat for 10 minutes. It took me 6 hours to get washed and dressed. My bin was smelly and the only way I could think of motivating myself to take it out was to go to the shop afterwards and buy binge food/drink. I was *not* happy with myself. I drank 2/3 of a bottle of wine and poured 1/3 down the sink. I ate a tub of ice cream and two small chocolate bars.
I am anxious about not being able to increase my working hours in time. The timetable had originally been to increase to 10 hours a week by February, then up it to 16 hours a week by May. If I don't get to 16 hours a week by May I'll have to work for 3 hours a week or less until I find a 16+ hour a week job. I don't know if working is a good idea for me, I really don't. I am so anxious! My passport hasn't arrived yet and it's difficult to get work without proof that I am allowed to work in this country. My ID is rubbish. Need passport! I don't want to look for work without one, but avoidance leads to more anxiety for me. I'm seeing my Work Directions person today, I'll talk to her about my anxieties. I've just submitted an online query about my passport.
Yesterday I thought that writing twitter updates about my anxiety was enough; that didn't work. I need to write about my anxiety more, it helps. Today my main plan is to get washed and dressed as soon as I can. I do not want to play solitaire today until I've left the flat and got back again.