Polite panic attacks are all the rage in Fitzrovia
There are many ways in which I cope well with life. On reading this journal, people may get the impression that I'm flapping half of the time: this is not the case. However, today was not a good day; or at least the late morning wasn't.
Last Thursday I was due to have my Testosterone shot by a nurse at my GP practice, and I completely forgot. Also, I had a prescription for T that was post-dated so that I would be absolutely sure that I got it filled in time: I forgot. I went to my re-scheduled appointment this morning and completely freaked out when told that we'd used the last of my ampules last time. I had a panic attack and two nurses attempted to patronise me out of it: this made me worse. One of them told me later 'Your behaviour earlier was completely unacceptable'. I said 'How do you want me to behave when I'm having a panic attack?' she replied 'Just tell us you're panicking'. Riiiight. So I'm to calmly state that I'm panicking and then just sit there am I? I really don't flipping know how that's going to be possible, I can't actually control myself very well at all when I'm having a panic attack. To add more problems into the mix, there is currently a shortage of Sustanon, and I have to wait for my gender doc to talk to the endo, and it's rather uncertain as to when I'm going to get my next supply of T.
I'm worried about my right to access medical treatment now. Does the Disability Discrimination Act cover me? If I have another shouting and screaming panic attack will I be de-registered and blacklisted from GP practices? I have a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder.
This is why keeping on top of admin and chores is important!
Good stuff:
Last Thursday I was due to have my Testosterone shot by a nurse at my GP practice, and I completely forgot. Also, I had a prescription for T that was post-dated so that I would be absolutely sure that I got it filled in time: I forgot. I went to my re-scheduled appointment this morning and completely freaked out when told that we'd used the last of my ampules last time. I had a panic attack and two nurses attempted to patronise me out of it: this made me worse. One of them told me later 'Your behaviour earlier was completely unacceptable'. I said 'How do you want me to behave when I'm having a panic attack?' she replied 'Just tell us you're panicking'. Riiiight. So I'm to calmly state that I'm panicking and then just sit there am I? I really don't flipping know how that's going to be possible, I can't actually control myself very well at all when I'm having a panic attack. To add more problems into the mix, there is currently a shortage of Sustanon, and I have to wait for my gender doc to talk to the endo, and it's rather uncertain as to when I'm going to get my next supply of T.
I'm worried about my right to access medical treatment now. Does the Disability Discrimination Act cover me? If I have another shouting and screaming panic attack will I be de-registered and blacklisted from GP practices? I have a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder.
This is why keeping on top of admin and chores is important!
Good stuff:
- I managed to get up at 6.30am in time to go to a 7.30am Pilates class.
- I had a nice breakfast at Pret A Manger.
- I did a short one-hour workout at the gym and finally did a bit of weight-lifting! Bliss :D
- I have friends that care about me and give me nice @nyecamden replies on twitter.
- I found £1.01 on the floor in Sainsbury's.
- I have a date to look forward to at the weekend.
- Livejournal is such a great place to vent on!
- I am going to have a meal for lunch that works with my diet. Oh yes!
- I have a fantastic flat in a fantastic location.
- After five weeks of rest and recuperation I'm not as unfit as I'd feared I was.
- Oh, lots and lots of other stuff!