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I got photos of Alex through the post today, plus a Round Robin. She is still extremely girly and pretty damn obsessed with pink.
I find it so difficult to get these yearly updates. I cry each time - a lot. For the first couple of years I could only cope with getting updates through my Aunty Joan; she would give them if and when I could cope with receiving them.
I only get a few brief paragraphs about her and some pictures. The more snippets of information about her I get the less I feel I know her. I don't know her. I knew her when she was four and under (had custody of her for the first three years of her life). The grief I have for the loss of my child, our relationship and my status of mother just doesn't lessen. I saw a poster on a bus the other day that said: "Adoption: easier than you think." Yeah. Right.
So the result of all that is that I have a big headache and feel rather miserable. We're going to First Out/Bi Underground in a bit... yup.