fighting the urge to use
I've been tired early in the evening for the last two nights. Tiredness is really triggery for me. When I am tired, I am apt to get sentimental and lonely. I don't like feeling lonely, I don't like feeling tired. Overeating used to stop me from feeling.
I've refrained from using food as an emotional anaesthetic for nearly six months. I *really* don't want to pick up. I'm not going to, and posting this is helping.
I was watching some hospital soap (Holby), and it was a christmas edition. Television goes all *family* at christmas; I don't have that. I'm not looking for advice or sympathy BTW.
Good stuff:
1.foibey and I did what we needed to do today, which is good.
2. I will be celebrating Winter Solstice tomorrow
3. I had a really enjoyable morning: breakfast at a greasy spoon, a walk around Kings Cross (sometimes you have to experience the high life), a browse in Housemans Bookshop on Caledonian Road (I love radical bookshops).
4. Cuddling on our new sofa is fabulous.
5. Cycling - great, isn't it?! I love cycling in central London. Weaving in and out of the traffic. :-)
I've refrained from using food as an emotional anaesthetic for nearly six months. I *really* don't want to pick up. I'm not going to, and posting this is helping.
I was watching some hospital soap (Holby), and it was a christmas edition. Television goes all *family* at christmas; I don't have that. I'm not looking for advice or sympathy BTW.
Good stuff:
1.foibey and I did what we needed to do today, which is good.
2. I will be celebrating Winter Solstice tomorrow
3. I had a really enjoyable morning: breakfast at a greasy spoon, a walk around Kings Cross (sometimes you have to experience the high life), a browse in Housemans Bookshop on Caledonian Road (I love radical bookshops).
4. Cuddling on our new sofa is fabulous.
5. Cycling - great, isn't it?! I love cycling in central London. Weaving in and out of the traffic. :-)