Confession time.....

[nycmaniac]

I have some confessions to make...mostly because the parts inside of me that have learned their lessons know that it is time. But trust me there is some part of me that still hasn't learned its lesson (case in point I spent the last 30 minutes crying without trying to reach out and wanting to just go to sleep crying telling myself that it wouldn't

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[lotrwariorgodss]

You do a lot, Kathleen, you just don't give yourself enough credit for what you do. If you still don't feel you've done enough, try not to linger on the past year, but instead try to change things in this one that will change the way you feel about yourself at your next birthday. You know going to class is contributing to your future, so that's probably something you can't/shouldn't change. Remember you have to take time to take care of yourself too. I know the not-eating issue runs deeper than this, but it might help for you to make an agreement with yourself - promise yourself that you will eat today, but you will eat healthy things. Don't tell yourself what you won't eat, instead tell yourself what you will eat - "I will eat a salad for lunch today" instead of "I will not eat french fries for lunch today". And when I say 'tell yourself' I mean literally say it out loud to yourself with conviction - sometimes that helps. If you don't stick with the agreement, don't get down on yourself - take a deep breath, remind yourself that you are human, and try again at the next meal. Remember that the fact that you are willing to fight the urge is a big step - you're doing something very good for yourself, and you should be proud of that. <3

[nycmaniac]

Thanks Megs. I used the "I will" yesterday. I am gonna keep trying. :-)