hey girlfriend, how ya been.
how do i breathe.
im becoming quite the sucker for the romantic genre of movies. fall break has placed way too much time on my hands. and of course, i choose the best, productive choice to do with my free time...movies. and so at the top of my tentative list is The Lakehouse. and why, might you ask? who knows. afterall, what kinda of story line is it when you're living two years apart from this so called love of your life. and your only means of contact is through a rusty mailbox that serves as a time portal between both periods. no, of course that's believable. watch ill prove it to you. let me drop a letter declaring my love for another in the year 2004 for someone that lives in my exact house only two years before me. =]
as retarded as it sounds...we, i.. am still somehow so completely wrapped in this almost impossible story of love. i say almost because you have to grant the smallest, slightest, chance that something like this is even possible. thanks to philosophy, you are never fully sure of the outside world. and since what we experience everyday is our outside world, you just have to agree. there is a chance. so ill let that slide.
but what's with my complete interest in this. alright i admit. i can always make room for a romantic movie or two. but lately this idea of 'romance' has been the only thing on my mind. so this is what its like to be single? i think im missing the point. am i really that 'needy?' do i really need to be with someone? do i really need to have that certain person claimed as my own, and i theirs?
god, how sad is that. what happened vicky. there was some point in your life where being labled as single was the greatest thing that couldve happened to you. and now you mope and moan, wishing and hoping. but for what? im afraid these feelings of..lonlieness...will eventually get the best of me and only drag me down even further. what a baby...'lonely' HA. cmon on. thats what you hear those heartbroken boyscrying all the time. am i turning into one of those sad, hopeless romantics? ew. cmon now. get with it. im only 19. ive got the rest of my life and time to put thought into this. so why now.
maybe i just need someone to hold my hand. -_-
well. whatever the case, im sure the only reasonable explaination is my huge intake of food within the past 2 days. of course. food is always the culprit.
so let me take a moment to explain my feelings of late. well, aside from what youve already been blessed with to read. HAH. just kidding. just kidding.
ahha, i realized somethings after having a super talk with some super friends.
you know that feeling..like...when you get on AIM only to see if that certain sn shows up. and if it does, a little smile creeps across your face.... i feel it coming back.
or you find yourself thinking about instances with that person..and once again, that imfamous smile..makes its appearence.
=] yeah..thats making another comeback.
back to being nervous, back to over thinking, over analyzing, wishing, and hoping. lol. man. MAN.
so lets say its for sure. i guess my only question to answer is...when do i choose to board the stupid train..or do i even hop the damn thing in the first place? hahahahahh. ohhhh man.
what have i gotten myself into. lol
im becoming quite the sucker for the romantic genre of movies. fall break has placed way too much time on my hands. and of course, i choose the best, productive choice to do with my free time...movies. and so at the top of my tentative list is The Lakehouse. and why, might you ask? who knows. afterall, what kinda of story line is it when you're living two years apart from this so called love of your life. and your only means of contact is through a rusty mailbox that serves as a time portal between both periods. no, of course that's believable. watch ill prove it to you. let me drop a letter declaring my love for another in the year 2004 for someone that lives in my exact house only two years before me. =]
as retarded as it sounds...we, i.. am still somehow so completely wrapped in this almost impossible story of love. i say almost because you have to grant the smallest, slightest, chance that something like this is even possible. thanks to philosophy, you are never fully sure of the outside world. and since what we experience everyday is our outside world, you just have to agree. there is a chance. so ill let that slide.
but what's with my complete interest in this. alright i admit. i can always make room for a romantic movie or two. but lately this idea of 'romance' has been the only thing on my mind. so this is what its like to be single? i think im missing the point. am i really that 'needy?' do i really need to be with someone? do i really need to have that certain person claimed as my own, and i theirs?
god, how sad is that. what happened vicky. there was some point in your life where being labled as single was the greatest thing that couldve happened to you. and now you mope and moan, wishing and hoping. but for what? im afraid these feelings of..lonlieness...will eventually get the best of me and only drag me down even further. what a baby...'lonely' HA. cmon on. thats what you hear those heartbroken boyscrying all the time. am i turning into one of those sad, hopeless romantics? ew. cmon now. get with it. im only 19. ive got the rest of my life and time to put thought into this. so why now.
maybe i just need someone to hold my hand. -_-
well. whatever the case, im sure the only reasonable explaination is my huge intake of food within the past 2 days. of course. food is always the culprit.
so let me take a moment to explain my feelings of late. well, aside from what youve already been blessed with to read. HAH. just kidding. just kidding.
ahha, i realized somethings after having a super talk with some super friends.
you know that feeling..like...when you get on AIM only to see if that certain sn shows up. and if it does, a little smile creeps across your face.... i feel it coming back.
or you find yourself thinking about instances with that person..and once again, that imfamous smile..makes its appearence.
=] yeah..thats making another comeback.
back to being nervous, back to over thinking, over analyzing, wishing, and hoping. lol. man. MAN.
so lets say its for sure. i guess my only question to answer is...when do i choose to board the stupid train..or do i even hop the damn thing in the first place? hahahahahh. ohhhh man.
what have i gotten myself into. lol