I hate today.
It started out bad...got in a fight with someone I considered a close friend.All because I was sticking up for another close friend.Obviously he wasn't a good friend in the first place though if he's gonna tell me not to talk to him anymore because I disagree with him. It makes me question all of our other talks.Was he actually trying to be a good friend and be there for me through my worst times,or was he just trying to get in my pants when I was vulnerable like she says he does with everybody? Thank god I'm smarter than that and didn't. I feel bad for her though. Nobody deserves to be talked about that way.
And yet I still feel like I did something wrong.Like by telling her I just created a bunch of drama. But she is still a close friend and I can't keep something like that from her.What if someday the subject comes up and Im saying how much I hate him...she'll wonder why, and then wonder why I didn't tell her sooner. Especially because his fake ass acts like everything is ok.
Ugh tell me I did the right thing. Tell me everything is gonna be ok. I don't like this.
Anyways...I guess I'm seeing Chris tonight.He just called. He works at a restaurant as a chef, and when he gets off he's gonna bring me some food. Probably just another excuse to sleep with me...I need to have a talk with him. I need to tell him how I feel. I don't just want sex. I want more with him....
Will I ever have that though?
And yet I still feel like I did something wrong.Like by telling her I just created a bunch of drama. But she is still a close friend and I can't keep something like that from her.What if someday the subject comes up and Im saying how much I hate him...she'll wonder why, and then wonder why I didn't tell her sooner. Especially because his fake ass acts like everything is ok.
Ugh tell me I did the right thing. Tell me everything is gonna be ok. I don't like this.
Anyways...I guess I'm seeing Chris tonight.He just called. He works at a restaurant as a chef, and when he gets off he's gonna bring me some food. Probably just another excuse to sleep with me...I need to have a talk with him. I need to tell him how I feel. I don't just want sex. I want more with him....
Will I ever have that though?