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I caved today and emailed, then followed up with a phone call (got the voice mail and no call back yet, not a surprise; though the former more so because I called at 9am); I just want to clear the air so this can end on the best possible terms.
I have had some teary moments, definitely felt some sadness... and as I said earlier, I feel like I just finished reading a really good book with a sad ending. I'm glad I read it, I don't know if I liked the ending, I had a good cry over it and now it's time for another book.
And here are the lessons I'm taking away with me:
1) That I do like being someone's girlfriend.
2) That as much as someone can be what you want, they can completely lack what you need
3) That it is possible to love someone and keep loving them after it doesn't work out. In that respect I may wind up understanding Chet's mentality more, the way his relationships with his other exes function.
4) That knowing you were wrong about someone being "the one" is one of the most heartbreaking feelings
5) That compromise is a double-edged sword; sometimes it makes the relationship run better and sometimes you compromise the core things you need in a relationship, like having a guy display that he's with you, be it on myspace, to his friends, to random people...I just feel like if my guy really cares about me I should come up at least a few times in each of those forums.
Unlike our last break up I don't have that panicky I'm never gonna find someone. Quite the contrary, I feel like I'll find someone soon, and I feel like the next serious relationship I get into is going to be it... that sounds silly... but that's the same little voice in me that for the past few months has been whispering "this isn't going to work", "plan for a future without him" and "keep your options open."
I have had some teary moments, definitely felt some sadness... and as I said earlier, I feel like I just finished reading a really good book with a sad ending. I'm glad I read it, I don't know if I liked the ending, I had a good cry over it and now it's time for another book.
And here are the lessons I'm taking away with me:
1) That I do like being someone's girlfriend.
2) That as much as someone can be what you want, they can completely lack what you need
3) That it is possible to love someone and keep loving them after it doesn't work out. In that respect I may wind up understanding Chet's mentality more, the way his relationships with his other exes function.
4) That knowing you were wrong about someone being "the one" is one of the most heartbreaking feelings
5) That compromise is a double-edged sword; sometimes it makes the relationship run better and sometimes you compromise the core things you need in a relationship, like having a guy display that he's with you, be it on myspace, to his friends, to random people...I just feel like if my guy really cares about me I should come up at least a few times in each of those forums.
Unlike our last break up I don't have that panicky I'm never gonna find someone. Quite the contrary, I feel like I'll find someone soon, and I feel like the next serious relationship I get into is going to be it... that sounds silly... but that's the same little voice in me that for the past few months has been whispering "this isn't going to work", "plan for a future without him" and "keep your options open."