[One Shot] Paint me a thousand words
Title: Paint me a thousand words (part 2 of Bed of Roses)
Author: Power Ranger Red Sho Nut octavialao
Pairing: Sakumoto, Juntoshi(side pairing)
Genre: Guess and be my guest.
Length: One Shot
Rating: PG
Beta: coolohoh jheili
Summary: Sho asked Satoshi to paint Jun.
A/N: I really feel that the world is in darkness. Thus I bring you this fic. I hope You enjoy reading this!
Part 1 Part 2
"Satoshi, please paint him." I saw Sho's dark and sad eyes. I want to reach out and touch him, comfort him.
"Sho, it's too painful." I said. I closed my eyes as I try to remember Jun's face, his eyes, his nose, his lips. My heart aches, a void in my chest seems to get bigger as days, weeks and months passed.
"Satoshi, I don't want to forget him."
I opened my eyes and Sho's face still blank. The distance between is awful. We were just within arm's reach but somehow, Sho seems so far away from me. There was a painful tugged on my heart.
"But why me Sho?"
"I want it to be you. Please Satoshi. Please." I heard his voice cracked and his breathing, shallow. He is close to tears I know.
"Sho. I can't really. I-" I was cut off in mid sentence when Sho suddenly kneeled in front of me. Eyes, pleading. Another tug in my heart.
"Satoshi. Please." It was soft, almost whisper. I closed my eyes again. I thought, maybe we need this, maybe Sho really needs this. Maybe I need it.
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"Satoshi, I'm loosing him." Sho confessed after he emptied down his beer in one gulped.
"Sho, what are you saying?"
"I'm loosing him Satoshi. I know, I could feel it." There's regret and anger in his voice. I placed my hand on his back and pats him gently.
"No. You're not loosing him Sho. Jun loves you."
He laughed. A bitter one. He reached for another beer and emptied it again in one gulped. He looked at me. And somehow it feels like he was boring into my soul.
"No. He'll leave me Satoshi. And he will never come back."
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"Sho, are you okay?" I asked him through my shoulder. He was still sitting on the floor facing my back and the big canvass in front of me.
"Yes. Please continue Satoshi."
And I smiled and turned my face to the canvass, paint on my left hand and a brush on the other. I looked at the canvass almost half way done. I once again closed my eyes, remembering every detail, every mole, the shape of his brows, the quirk of his lips, the tallness of his nose and the intensity of his eyes framed by his long lashes.
I began to move my hands and delicately added the details, every flick of my wrist and every stroke was intoxicating. The smell of the paint drowning my senses.
I didn't know that I already finished my work and was staring at the beautiful face in the canvass till Sho spoke up.
"You really know Jun that well." He stood up, staring blankly on the the painting. Like he didn't even know the man's face. I gaze at him, again, another tug in my heart. A burning hole, aching again.
He looks so lost. I have set aside all my reserves and walked toward him. I felt my feet heavy and I struggled to walk. Eyes blurry as I reached out my hand to the younger man.
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"Satoshi. He left. He left him."
I spun my head towards Sho. His voice surprisingly hallow. But his eyes lost it's sparkle and dark, unfathomable. I was alarmed by the information.
"What do you mean he left?"
"He never came home. It's been 2 days Satoshi."
I shivered. My eyes wide in panic. 2 days? I itched to take my phone out and call the youngest. But Sho's reaction is more alarming. He's barely holding on. I know.
"Maybe, he just went somewhere. I'm sure he'll call you. You know Jun also needs his alone time Sho."
Sho shakes his head. and laughed.
"No. He's gone forever."
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"Sho.."
I dragged my feet to him and when he is within arms length I hugged him. We almost collapsed on the floor. I have been keeping my tears from falling. But embracing Sho, I let it all out. I cried on his shoulder.
"I'm sorry Sho. I really am." My heart squeezed and the painful throb came back once again. My skin itched and it burns. My eyes, hazy probably because of my overflowing tears. I clung to Sho to support myself.
"I'm sorry. sorry." Guilt overwhelmed me. I couldn't take it anymore. All the facade I've kept up for months, years. I let go. I need to do this. I should have done this before. 8 months ago.
"Shhh.. It's okay Satoshi. It's okay." He ran his hands on my hair and hums on my ear.
"I know. I know everything. And I forgive you."
I froze. Not understanding him. I pulled away from the embrace and stare at him. Feeling more guilty than before. Realization dawned on me. He knew. All along.
"How- why- Sho, I'm sorry." I was getting dizzy. Maybe the realization was too much for me. I've kept it hidden in my heart, the guilt and fear and sadness. Sho never everything, but he never confronted me. My anger rose up. Anger to myself.
"Sho-" Suddenly I find it hard to breathe. I feel like my throat closed up. Not the burning feeling I feel in my skin was coming back to me. More intense than before. I was choking and I can see that my skin is turning red, blotches appeared where smudges of paint were. My knees gave up and I was kneeling in front of Sho. I searched for his help.
"S-ssho-"
"Shhh.. soon, You'll be with Jun. Don't worry. I forgive you Satoshi. I already forgave both of you."
And the last thing I saw was Sho's dark and evil smirk.
Author: Power Ranger Red Sho Nut octavialao
Pairing: Sakumoto, Juntoshi(side pairing)
Genre: Guess and be my guest.
Length: One Shot
Rating: PG
Beta: coolohoh jheili
Summary: Sho asked Satoshi to paint Jun.
A/N: I really feel that the world is in darkness. Thus I bring you this fic. I hope You enjoy reading this!
Part 1 Part 2
"Satoshi, please paint him." I saw Sho's dark and sad eyes. I want to reach out and touch him, comfort him.
"Sho, it's too painful." I said. I closed my eyes as I try to remember Jun's face, his eyes, his nose, his lips. My heart aches, a void in my chest seems to get bigger as days, weeks and months passed.
"Satoshi, I don't want to forget him."
I opened my eyes and Sho's face still blank. The distance between is awful. We were just within arm's reach but somehow, Sho seems so far away from me. There was a painful tugged on my heart.
"But why me Sho?"
"I want it to be you. Please Satoshi. Please." I heard his voice cracked and his breathing, shallow. He is close to tears I know.
"Sho. I can't really. I-" I was cut off in mid sentence when Sho suddenly kneeled in front of me. Eyes, pleading. Another tug in my heart.
"Satoshi. Please." It was soft, almost whisper. I closed my eyes again. I thought, maybe we need this, maybe Sho really needs this. Maybe I need it.
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"Satoshi, I'm loosing him." Sho confessed after he emptied down his beer in one gulped.
"Sho, what are you saying?"
"I'm loosing him Satoshi. I know, I could feel it." There's regret and anger in his voice. I placed my hand on his back and pats him gently.
"No. You're not loosing him Sho. Jun loves you."
He laughed. A bitter one. He reached for another beer and emptied it again in one gulped. He looked at me. And somehow it feels like he was boring into my soul.
"No. He'll leave me Satoshi. And he will never come back."
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"Sho, are you okay?" I asked him through my shoulder. He was still sitting on the floor facing my back and the big canvass in front of me.
"Yes. Please continue Satoshi."
And I smiled and turned my face to the canvass, paint on my left hand and a brush on the other. I looked at the canvass almost half way done. I once again closed my eyes, remembering every detail, every mole, the shape of his brows, the quirk of his lips, the tallness of his nose and the intensity of his eyes framed by his long lashes.
I began to move my hands and delicately added the details, every flick of my wrist and every stroke was intoxicating. The smell of the paint drowning my senses.
I didn't know that I already finished my work and was staring at the beautiful face in the canvass till Sho spoke up.
"You really know Jun that well." He stood up, staring blankly on the the painting. Like he didn't even know the man's face. I gaze at him, again, another tug in my heart. A burning hole, aching again.
He looks so lost. I have set aside all my reserves and walked toward him. I felt my feet heavy and I struggled to walk. Eyes blurry as I reached out my hand to the younger man.
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"Satoshi. He left. He left him."
I spun my head towards Sho. His voice surprisingly hallow. But his eyes lost it's sparkle and dark, unfathomable. I was alarmed by the information.
"What do you mean he left?"
"He never came home. It's been 2 days Satoshi."
I shivered. My eyes wide in panic. 2 days? I itched to take my phone out and call the youngest. But Sho's reaction is more alarming. He's barely holding on. I know.
"Maybe, he just went somewhere. I'm sure he'll call you. You know Jun also needs his alone time Sho."
Sho shakes his head. and laughed.
"No. He's gone forever."
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"Sho.."
I dragged my feet to him and when he is within arms length I hugged him. We almost collapsed on the floor. I have been keeping my tears from falling. But embracing Sho, I let it all out. I cried on his shoulder.
"I'm sorry Sho. I really am." My heart squeezed and the painful throb came back once again. My skin itched and it burns. My eyes, hazy probably because of my overflowing tears. I clung to Sho to support myself.
"I'm sorry. sorry." Guilt overwhelmed me. I couldn't take it anymore. All the facade I've kept up for months, years. I let go. I need to do this. I should have done this before. 8 months ago.
"Shhh.. It's okay Satoshi. It's okay." He ran his hands on my hair and hums on my ear.
"I know. I know everything. And I forgive you."
I froze. Not understanding him. I pulled away from the embrace and stare at him. Feeling more guilty than before. Realization dawned on me. He knew. All along.
"How- why- Sho, I'm sorry." I was getting dizzy. Maybe the realization was too much for me. I've kept it hidden in my heart, the guilt and fear and sadness. Sho never everything, but he never confronted me. My anger rose up. Anger to myself.
"Sho-" Suddenly I find it hard to breathe. I feel like my throat closed up. Not the burning feeling I feel in my skin was coming back to me. More intense than before. I was choking and I can see that my skin is turning red, blotches appeared where smudges of paint were. My knees gave up and I was kneeling in front of Sho. I searched for his help.
"S-ssho-"
"Shhh.. soon, You'll be with Jun. Don't worry. I forgive you Satoshi. I already forgave both of you."
And the last thing I saw was Sho's dark and evil smirk.