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I know I've been meaning to update and catch up, and I simply haven't done it. I'm sorry. I've just been so busy with work and school and, well, life. But I really wanted to do a post about the fact that tomorrow is my last day of school ever. I've been at this school for 7 years. SEVEN YEARS! To an 18 year old, that's a huge chunk of their life! But more than that I've met the people I will keep close to me for my entire life at this school. I've made friends and lost them, developed crushes and had my heart broken. I've grown up with these people, and now I'm saying goodbye. It's literally like saying goodbye to my family.
Don't get my wrong, I'm not saying I get on with or even like my whole year. I don't at all. But even those annoying guys, or the bitchy girls - they've become a part of my life. They're like the rude uncle that always gets pissed and ends up dancing on the table. Everyone hates them, but it wouldn't be a family reunion without them. They're the people that have made me who I am. Be it from tearing me down, or building me up. And for that I will always be grateful. Because the person I am now is the person I always wanted to be. I'm smart, confident and comfortable. I'm everything I began this school not being. The teachers, the pupils, everything about these 7 years has moulded me into who I am. And even though I was bullied, and I went through a lot of hardship, there is nothing on this earth that would make me change my experience.
I just cannot believe tomorrow will be the last day I walk into those doors for something other than a exam or the leaver's day. It's terrifying, and devastating. I will be a mess tomorrow, I'm sure. I just can't imagine a life without my school. If that makes me sad or just sentimental then I don't care. It's my second home, where my other family live and the thought of not being able to pop in everyday to see them is so upsetting. My friends are my lifeline, truly, and realistically this will change our friendships. We won't see each other everyday. I won't be able to hug them everyday. I don't doubt that our friendships will remain as strong as they were, I'm not worried about that. I'm just so sad that from tomorrow onwards, I'm no longer a part of something that has sheltered me for seven whole years. I don't know how to say goodbye to something so central to who I am.
Don't get my wrong, I'm not saying I get on with or even like my whole year. I don't at all. But even those annoying guys, or the bitchy girls - they've become a part of my life. They're like the rude uncle that always gets pissed and ends up dancing on the table. Everyone hates them, but it wouldn't be a family reunion without them. They're the people that have made me who I am. Be it from tearing me down, or building me up. And for that I will always be grateful. Because the person I am now is the person I always wanted to be. I'm smart, confident and comfortable. I'm everything I began this school not being. The teachers, the pupils, everything about these 7 years has moulded me into who I am. And even though I was bullied, and I went through a lot of hardship, there is nothing on this earth that would make me change my experience.
I just cannot believe tomorrow will be the last day I walk into those doors for something other than a exam or the leaver's day. It's terrifying, and devastating. I will be a mess tomorrow, I'm sure. I just can't imagine a life without my school. If that makes me sad or just sentimental then I don't care. It's my second home, where my other family live and the thought of not being able to pop in everyday to see them is so upsetting. My friends are my lifeline, truly, and realistically this will change our friendships. We won't see each other everyday. I won't be able to hug them everyday. I don't doubt that our friendships will remain as strong as they were, I'm not worried about that. I'm just so sad that from tomorrow onwards, I'm no longer a part of something that has sheltered me for seven whole years. I don't know how to say goodbye to something so central to who I am.