Happy, or still sad?
Heather's making me so crazy. I don't know whether I should be happy at what's going on, or pissed off at Heather still. Heather still hasn't told me a damn thing about what's going on. I feel like she's using me. Sad to say, but I don't like it. I mean, I like it, but I don't like the feeling that something bad might come of this. I swear, if she's only using me to use me, and not to get back together with me, I'll end up hating her, and totally regretting what we did this past Friday.
Well, now that I'm done being pissed...Heather and I met again last night. We met at the gas station that we always used to meet at. She could only be there an hour, which sucked, but that was fine by me. We sat inside the gas station for a little while, then went outside to my car, where we sat for the rest of the time before she ahd to go. We made out some, and here's what was bothering me. Everytime we'd pull away from each other, I could see the pain and confusion in Heather's eyes. She wants me back again, but she's sooo confused. I don't know what she's confused about, truly. But, she's so confused. I told her that I saw the confusion in here eyes, and she just agreed. I told her I wish there was something I could do for her. God, I love her so much, and I really miss her. I need to go see my therapist again this week. He'll be quite happy to learn of what's going on. Also, I've got a couple of posts on my laptop, along with a letter that I wrote in response to heather's letter. I don't know if I'll post the letter, but I'll get around to those posts either today or tomorrow.
Well, now that I'm done being pissed...Heather and I met again last night. We met at the gas station that we always used to meet at. She could only be there an hour, which sucked, but that was fine by me. We sat inside the gas station for a little while, then went outside to my car, where we sat for the rest of the time before she ahd to go. We made out some, and here's what was bothering me. Everytime we'd pull away from each other, I could see the pain and confusion in Heather's eyes. She wants me back again, but she's sooo confused. I don't know what she's confused about, truly. But, she's so confused. I told her that I saw the confusion in here eyes, and she just agreed. I told her I wish there was something I could do for her. God, I love her so much, and I really miss her. I need to go see my therapist again this week. He'll be quite happy to learn of what's going on. Also, I've got a couple of posts on my laptop, along with a letter that I wrote in response to heather's letter. I don't know if I'll post the letter, but I'll get around to those posts either today or tomorrow.