Musing on the nature of existence, as usual.
Don't really have anyone to talk to IRL about this kind of stuff, so I just plop it down here.
So, I think I'm probably Buddhist. Well, more like I think I believe in Buddhism, but don't know that I actually want to change my suffering, attached ways. Or at least, as far as the major religions go, this one makes the most sense to me, rings with the most truth. It's not an easy conclusion - I don't really dig the whole non-permanence thing, I just think that's probably the way it is.
Not the easiest conclusion to come to with the Christian husband and living in the middle of Baptist Central. Like I just want to coast along and see if I can deal with it in some future lifetime instead.
A few months ago, I had this imminently sensible Catholic friend of mine tell me all about her epiphany - about a remembered bit of a past life. About how she feels that time & our very lives may be an illusion - that kind of stuff. How she does not fear death at all anymore. I don't believe she's crazy. It's like she reached this conclusion as sensibly as everything else in her life.
She told me about her experiences - I was totally surprised, taken aback - and all I could think was, "How Cool!"
It's weird to think how everyone around me would just think I've been fooled by the Devil and I'll be condemned to everlasting damnation. I don't know what the truth is, but the one thing I really can't believe in is everlasting damnation. Hell, I don't even want Hitler to suffer for all eternity. I'd hope that sometime in the vastness of time, he could be redeemed in some way.
So, I think I'm probably Buddhist. Well, more like I think I believe in Buddhism, but don't know that I actually want to change my suffering, attached ways. Or at least, as far as the major religions go, this one makes the most sense to me, rings with the most truth. It's not an easy conclusion - I don't really dig the whole non-permanence thing, I just think that's probably the way it is.
Not the easiest conclusion to come to with the Christian husband and living in the middle of Baptist Central. Like I just want to coast along and see if I can deal with it in some future lifetime instead.
A few months ago, I had this imminently sensible Catholic friend of mine tell me all about her epiphany - about a remembered bit of a past life. About how she feels that time & our very lives may be an illusion - that kind of stuff. How she does not fear death at all anymore. I don't believe she's crazy. It's like she reached this conclusion as sensibly as everything else in her life.
She told me about her experiences - I was totally surprised, taken aback - and all I could think was, "How Cool!"
It's weird to think how everyone around me would just think I've been fooled by the Devil and I'll be condemned to everlasting damnation. I don't know what the truth is, but the one thing I really can't believe in is everlasting damnation. Hell, I don't even want Hitler to suffer for all eternity. I'd hope that sometime in the vastness of time, he could be redeemed in some way.