Hey look, I'm 21 years old now.
Sunday, January 31st 2010 at 3:09pm
Interesting note is that I know that it's Sunday without looking at the computer calendar as I usually have been doing the past... who knows how long. Did I know what day of the week it was when I was dating Porcupine? I probably did. Ah, to be aware of your man's schedule... To have one of the first things that enter one's mind in the morning; It is Sunday; and tomorrow Paladin goes off to work again and for long hours... I will not be able to see him most of the day...
I would like to return to cleaning tomorrow, but I must remember to take it slow. I spent my birthday sick, you see. I've woken up with a sore throat a few times now. Purportedly, Paladin oft finds that upon waking his throat is sore, but thinks nothing of it. There is a draft in his bedroom due to the single-paned window in close proximity to the bed. That alone would likely not lead me to be sick; at least not anymore. I'm not the same fragile child that got mono four times in four years.
But since somewhere in early December I've been pushing my body to gain muscle. I've had some success, but also a few set-backs. I fear I don't consume nearly enough protein. The only sources I consume with any regularity whatsoever is almond butter, eggs, chicken and sausage. And the latter two can't really be considered to be in regularity at all. In any case, working out so frequently seems to have created a need for many more vitamins or protein or whatever in my diet. Anyhow, I've been managing that alright.
But then the added challenge of not being allowed to nap came into play. It fixed my schedule by a lot, but it also meant I wasn't getting nearly as much sleep as I was accustomed to. But both the lack of napping and the added working out were not too much of a strain on my system; I handled alright.
Then I arrived here and added the drafty window in addition to finally being able to have satisfying sex again. That meant even more vigorous exercise. And I suspect that the level of excitement I've been feeling as of late may have even played a role as well. Luckily, I seem to already be recovering from yesterday's bout. I expect that I was running a 101 fever, and I was feeling very weak and dizzy most of the day.
Despite being ill, I've had a pleasant weekend. Friday Paladin and I went out. We had breakfast at a vegan Chinese restaurant in a nearby suburb of where Paladin lives. Then we proceeded to checkout a nearby card-shop and board-game and hobby store. I enjoyed that quite a bit, especially because Paladin allowed me to dress him in spikes, a pony-tail, skater pants and a 'dressy punk' button down shirt, as well as my goth-ish black belt covered in metal loops. It was very pleasing just to watch him in general (as he was driving, or browsing things in the store - most of the time we were arm in arm and I observed scenery and women).
At the second store the second expansion to Race for the Galaxy; Rebel vs. Imperium was on sale, and Paladin decided that was all the incentive needed to buy it for me. I smiled outwardly and inwardly. I'm guessing, even though it wasn't declared such, that that may count as my birthday present, since no wrapped present appeared yesterday. I had wanted to go out dancing with him, but that clearly wasn't to be.
We also went grocery shopping, and after we came home I made a fruit dish for each of us (with banana, peach, raspberries, blueberries, and a bit of raspberry kefir doused in raw cream). We talked to my father on cam later that evening, who rambled at length about the immoral practices of Monsanto, and Dupont, and some other companies, and about some very interesting, but ridiculous Reptilian theories.
I had more berries and cream my birthday morning. Paladin wished me a happy birthday and gave me an acceptable amount of affection - although, I mean to show him a thing or two about how to give affection over time. His touches don't lack compassion or thought, but sometimes they can lack in a level of romance.
Shortly after breakfast I began to feel quite icky. And at some point during the day while I was in the bathroom I had a sickening and horrifying moment where I felt a sensation I have not felt in many years that was instantly recognizable; my spleen hurt. But it was over in a moment with out a second occurrence, so I'm hoping very sincerely that it was just some odd fluke.
I showed Paladin one such way to have 'low impact' sex with me. With pillows under each of my legs while he was on top. It puts a very minimal amount of stress on the body that way. Interestingly enough, I came three times (maybe four) and he didn't cum at all - my lack of energy combined with the difficulty of moving from that angle for him wouldn't allow him to cum.