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I am sick to fucking death of others actions so closely effecting my life. I made the conscious decision not too long ago to keep my nose out of other people's issues and I've been doing a pretty good job of sticking to my guns on that. But I failed to realize that sometimes things happen that are going to effect you whether you like it or not. The choices the people that you love make always have to do with you in one way or another. And what the fuck am I supposed to do when I feel like two people that I love are coming at me from either end? Especially when they're doing it without even realizing it. I'm not trying to be selfish, but I wish that for once the people that are supposed to be the closest to me would just take a short look at what their conflicts are doing to my life. I feel frantic. Like at any fucking second the other shoe's going to drop and I'm going to be left in the fucking dark yet again.
And here I thought I was growing up...
And here I thought I was growing up...