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update:
school, rotc, soccer. school. i'm writing my analysis paper on the many layers of american beauty. i get to be the intellectual film student and make up words like emancipatory. i'm in my planning stage for my final video shoot. i already have people asking me for roles. no script on my end though. i'm up for ideas. and today in sociology we discussed crime and drugs. electronic media arts and communication. EMAC is key.
rotc. today i got to punch people. no joke we had marine corps self defense day. complete with boxing gloves and head gear. i've never really been in a fight. is it sadistic to say i like it a bit? i really could channel anger, fear, and hostility. i'm more comfortable with myself now that i know where i can find those emotions. i think meditation is needed to balance them out.
soccer. i have amazing times with my girls. us freshies are my core group of friends. but it's different. we're an actual group. ok in high school of course i had friends but never really felt that i belonged to a real group. things were just ok. i look back and realize it was all so fake. i was fooling myself. now it's all changed. i'm a part of something. people know me for me. with this campus there's always someone you know and there's always someone new to meet. it's all the perks of college plus. i'm having the time of my life.
and if everything is a symbol of something else...