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my emotions are whiling out these days. im trying to stay on top though. not let that dumb shit get to me.
i think all the excitement of whats about to go down is keeping me from realizing how shitty its going to be
im sure it will set in soon, but i plan on making the very best out of it that i possibly can.
blake will be 7 months on the 24th, pretty cool.
hes starting to talk. he says yay and mama all the time
were working on crawling.he has a freakin tooth now. never thought id see that day
still not to much hair but its been ordered. ha
crazy life with a baby. crazy beautiful that is.
i want to get away for like a couple days and clear my head. bring blake of corse.
maybe the sav. i feel that i should regroup myself.
some guy made a pass at me last night, and it pretty much slapped me in the face because of how uninterested i was.
trevor thinks ive cheated on him and that im seeing someone secretly already, but little does he know
i really have no drive to date anyone, nor do i want to. im over being with people.
like i said i put everything into my relationship with trev in full faith that he was the only person id be with for the rest of my life, but that didnt pan out the way it shouldve. so im just going to lay low from the scene. i think im just better off being ashlee and independent.
i dont think i could like anybody even if i tried. and i dont need another hassel to deal with. all men are the same, and that sounds immature to say, but its def true. selfish and jealous insecure and rude lazy fucks. we were talking about that at work last night, about how no men respect women anymore. no guy ive ever met has been deserving enough of my attention. and the guys my friends date either. girls have lowered their standards so much its ridiculous. i especially think if a woman has had your child you should respect her just for that. but that doesnt happened either. thats all i really have to say.