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some days i wake up and look at blake and im like holy shit i really do have a son.
it stil just puts my life in retrospect sometimes to see him and know how long it took for him to be here.
and how much it takes to raise a person. and to think he came from me and trev it still just amazes me.
usually by the time a child is like amost 5 months old you think most people would be like yeah whatever he isnt new to me anymore
but he never gets old. everyday its something new. im pretty sure he is about to pop a tooth here soon.
hes about to be sitting up by himself. and soon after he'll be crawling. its so cool to be able to watch the stages of life.
when i was in the hospital in labor i remember sitting there in bed thinking. wow im actually in labor, about to have a baby,
the whole thought of what i was doing and about to be doing and what i would end up with kept blowing my mind. and when he was finally next to me i realized there really was a baby in my stomach the whole time. after you wait nine whole months and never see or touch him you start to question if there really is a baby in there and if you will ever really see and meet them. and when he came out there was a long silence in the room. for about 15 seconds until he started crying. and the whole world stopped until i heard him cry. that had to be the most surreal moment in my life thus far. the whole 15 hours of labor and pain and the whole 9 months of waiting and wishing he would be here and i could see who he looked like, all for the one moment of knowing he was a healthy little boy. now he will be 5 months on christmas eve. 5 whole months has gone by and he is still every bit as sweet and interesting to me as the day he was born. thats love. you think you love your boyfriends and girlfriends until your child comes, and they put everything youve ever felt for anybody to shame.and then theres the first smile, and the first laugh. the first time he laughed at me i swore i couldnt believe my eyes. and when i wake up in the morning and he rolls over and looks at me and puts this huge toothless smile on and wraps his arms around my head almost like its a good morning mommy hug. theres really nothing that compares to it.
it stil just puts my life in retrospect sometimes to see him and know how long it took for him to be here.
and how much it takes to raise a person. and to think he came from me and trev it still just amazes me.
usually by the time a child is like amost 5 months old you think most people would be like yeah whatever he isnt new to me anymore
but he never gets old. everyday its something new. im pretty sure he is about to pop a tooth here soon.
hes about to be sitting up by himself. and soon after he'll be crawling. its so cool to be able to watch the stages of life.
when i was in the hospital in labor i remember sitting there in bed thinking. wow im actually in labor, about to have a baby,
the whole thought of what i was doing and about to be doing and what i would end up with kept blowing my mind. and when he was finally next to me i realized there really was a baby in my stomach the whole time. after you wait nine whole months and never see or touch him you start to question if there really is a baby in there and if you will ever really see and meet them. and when he came out there was a long silence in the room. for about 15 seconds until he started crying. and the whole world stopped until i heard him cry. that had to be the most surreal moment in my life thus far. the whole 15 hours of labor and pain and the whole 9 months of waiting and wishing he would be here and i could see who he looked like, all for the one moment of knowing he was a healthy little boy. now he will be 5 months on christmas eve. 5 whole months has gone by and he is still every bit as sweet and interesting to me as the day he was born. thats love. you think you love your boyfriends and girlfriends until your child comes, and they put everything youve ever felt for anybody to shame.and then theres the first smile, and the first laugh. the first time he laughed at me i swore i couldnt believe my eyes. and when i wake up in the morning and he rolls over and looks at me and puts this huge toothless smile on and wraps his arms around my head almost like its a good morning mommy hug. theres really nothing that compares to it.