Dec 07, 2004 23:18
security, happiness, fulfillment, lovers, singing in the rain, laying on the ground, those
rose tinted glasses are awfully expenisve...umm i'd love to say yes if you'd only just ask
me but last time you asked me you had to let me go i'm wild as can be and maybe kinda pretty
but theres just something about me that you dont know and i know i can do better than last
time i swear i just wish youd make it easier and help get me there im sorry for what
happened even though it was your fault and we were both young and stupid, horny and drunk
and thats what happens when teenagers fall in love and i know its all so messy and theres
too much baggage to claim, but i can move past it in a heartbeat if things can just return
to that saturday in june where i gave it away and you gave it too and we really dont
remember and we both try to deny and we both regret it happening and i was the only one to
cry and you felt bad about nothing but you did something wrong but im looking past that baby
and i am ready for my closure ive been waiting in a year long line and im really getting
kind of angry but i guess attraction fades with time and now im older and better and all the
things you wanted then but now you want something different so i guess i'll just change
again to maybe make you want me in my pathetic search for acceptance you hand me rejection
and i take it whole heartedly to try to get some sympathy from this cold hard person who
threw the dirt on top and laughed and scoffed and ran away knowing i was still alive and i
dug myself out more than once and put myself right back in hoping if i was where you'd left
me youd come across me again and remember me and that first attraction that can never be
emulated again but maybe if we just forget it all and get high and take the world in but
baby now i'm older and i can accept it all too and ive broken a few hearts myself now and i
wish i could to that to you given the opportunity id fuck you then probably kill you because
closure comes in many forms some bloodier than others but whatever floats your boat baby
sail me away forget i exist i am not allowed to care about you or fantasize before i go to
bed right down the road from where it all happened and wanting to turn left and go back to
it all but i turn right and head towards the real life where you don't exist and i have it
all and all the girls hate me and all the guys stare because i have an attitude problem and
you put it there and you turned me into a heartbreaker a bitter shrew indeed if one has
never been hurt then they may not know how to hurt you like you hurt me and maybe one of
these days ill give up when im older and out of this town and am not reminded of you
everywhere i look please look at me and just give me the closure i deserve i dont ask much i
dont wanna keep in touch i just need one more night of 15, one more night of clumsy drunken
sex, the innocence, the naivety, the gullibility...fifteen theres still time for you, theres
a big gap thats kept me from moving on i need to move on so lets just go back for one more
night and i'll leave you the FUCK alone