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Well I'm bored and I haven't been on long enough to update, so here goes...
Sunday was my birthday. Even though it's not a big deal..but thanks for the gifts and "Happy Birthday's" everyone :)
Spent the whole weekend with the relatives from Florida that I've NEVER met but just HAD to spend time with. They were alright I guess. All they could talk about is how great Mike is for graduating from CIA training. I guess that is pretty cool, but w/e. We had to show them *snow* too. The whole time they were like "Omg it's freezing. I didn't know you needed gloves? How do you make a snowman?"...Yeah who knew snow could be so cold? Lol. The grandparents were a bit too much tho. I can only handle a whole 10 minutes with them. (Not a whole weekend) They say they hate my Uncle Rick..but as soon as they're around him he's a god. And they can spend all day at his house but they can only stop for a few minutes at ours..even though we wanted to visit with my cousins. But I don't really want to get into that because I know I'll just get pissed and want to bitch at them the next time I see them.
So it's Christmas season....wow how much do I hate Christmas? Don't get me wrong. I'm not all "against" it. I just don't like it. Lol. Ever since I was little..I've always hated it. Well I have my reasons. What with getting incredibly sick every year. And me and my brother watching all of our cousins get gifts from my grandparents and aunts and uncles but not us. And not to mention the family fueds (attempting suicide, calling the cops, fist fights....oh the list goes on) Ugh it's just depressing. But not just that...everyone gets all uptight trying to get everything done on time. And I would feel so much better if I didn't get anything for Christmas, but I KNOW people just have to go out buy things for me. I just don't like this time of year. I'll be happy when it's over.
Gah! School should end. Like now. It's taking way too long. Oh but it finally snowed which makes me happy! I love snow. And me and Clint went snowboarding!! Woo! I've been waiting all year to do that. I think I wanna try to snowskate. It looks fun. I might go out and buy a board but I'm not sure if I wanna spend my money on something like that. Ah whatever.
So I guess things are just..blah..and yeah. I don't really know what's goin on. Some weekends I spend most of my time with Emily or Liz. And it's fun. But than we don't talk for a while and it gets weird. And than other times I spend the whole weekend with Tony and his family. I love his friends and family and I love spending time with him, even tho I wished I didn't. I haven't seen him or talked to him since they moved to the appartment because they don't have the phones hooked up. But I hope I get to see him. He's leaving for Iraq soon. That's mainly the reason why I wished I never liked him. He'll be gone for a year and a half. Maybe even longer. And I don't think I can wait. Actually I KNOW I can't wait. It's hard enough for me to accept the fact that I like him now. But after he leaves it's gunna be hard to let go and I can't just wait for him. I can't. Ugh..I don't wanna talk about it anymore. It depresses me and makes me miss him even more and...yeah I'm doing it again. I guess I'll just quit for now. I'm out..later <3